Haha, yeah I honestly didn't know what to call this piece, so I just called it Grabbing. Not a very good name, but for now that's what it is.
Hands Grabbing.
I did this during church for I like to paint, it helps me listen. When I grabbed the program it has this picture and I wanted to try to recreate it in my style. So two hours later this is what I did and I like it. My style I feel like is more bright and unique, but maybe you don't think so, but I personally do.
The past few weeks I've been trying to publish my first book of Sweet and Sour through Amazon self-publishing. I got it on kindle book just fine, piece of cake, it was a breeze. But I've been trying to get it on paperback and it's like impossible!
They help you very much with the kindle version, but with paperback their like "You're on your own, we need it in a PDF file," and all this other crap that I'm like, "What?!?"
I spent hours and hours on my laptop, computer, and phone trying to figure out how to make a PDF file and etc. It took a lot of exporting, blood and tears, but hopefully, I got it and it will be available soon. But for now, you can check it out on kindle here.
This painting took me 21 hours and 22 minutes. I was so shocked when I realized that usually, a painting takes me like 2 to 4 hours. But when I was done and check the timer it said 21 hours and 22 minutes. Wow! Like wow! That's a long time.
I didn't sit on my butt all that time, I actually would work on it when I can. I started this project just to do something during church for I have a hard time sitting and listening during church so drawing or painting helps. Every Sunday at church I would color this project, which took me over four weeks. Now that I'm done I feel like I need another big project, haha!
But this project is all about me.
Going to Therapy I've been learning a lot about myself and decided I wanted to make a painting all about me. I have vision myself now in the middle while other parts of me touching my shoulder or leg, and then added other parts of me in the background.
Swimsuit Girl:
The little girl in the swimsuit is me as a child, I wore swimsuits all the time, like all the time. My favorite color was pink, and to this day I still feel childish, and compassionate. I feel like the child also represents the compassionate self, for sure kids don't understand a lot but when they see someone cry they just hug, at least my kids do and it makes me so happy and comfortable.
Suit Girl:
On the right side is a girl in a suit jacket with a name stage and a skirt, I served a mission for my church and grew up in this church, but also had to find out if it's true and something I wanted to be a part of for the rest of my life, and I did found that answer. This girl represents my faith self, how much I have served and still serve for this church because I do believe in it and adore it and how no one should take that away from me.
Red Girl:
When I was a teen, I fell in love with singer-songwriter Imogen Heap, I loved her talent, her fashion, and her songs. I wanted to be like her so I would try to dress up like her to school and didn't care what people think of me. This girl is my creative girl, and at the time black was my new favorite color, I wouldn't say I went gothic but did dislike pink for a bit.
Ballet Girl in the Background:
The ballerina in the background is someone who I wanted to be when I grow up. I started ballet when I was seven years old and absolutely loved it. I had friends that say how Jazz or hip hop is better, but I disagreed, ballet was my favorite, Lyrical was my second favorite, I truly wanted to be a dancer. But I had a knee problem that got in the way of my dream, it kept slipping out and got worse and worse the older I got. So I had to quit and started focus more on my new passion which is drawing.
Goddess with angel wings:
On the bottom right corner, there is a girl with angel wings, she is who I think of myself, a goddess. I enjoy thinking about myself as a goddess and I never told anyone about it until now.
Blackhole:
On the top right corner, there's a girl with a wedding dress on if you look closely and she is in this black hole. My first marriage didn't last long and left me in this darkness. I gain two little angels but I was mentally, emotionally, and physically not well. I won't go into too many details but the point is that was the dark time of my life. I do hope I will find someone and get married again, but for now, I am happy and grateful for modern medicine and therapy.
Now you know so much about me, I call this painting Me, Myself and I, for it is all about me. I did a space theme because I have a thing for space, I think it's so pretty and fun to paint. Now I did five different versions because I cannot decide how I want it to look, or the final look to be, what do you think? Let me know!
