Being A Mother

Oh boy it's been a while, and in my past post I did say how my personal life is going crazy, well I think it finally calmed down. At least I hope, I am going through something that I never thought in my life I would and yet it did so never say never, you never know what will happen.

But I am not going to talk about it just yet, or go into details, right now I am going to talk about what I'm up too and what I've done so far.

I hardly did anything in the past few months (from February till May at least,) I have done a few projects like coloring pictures request and if you want a request just email me, or message me on Instagram or Facebook, I take requests $20 for each picture.

With these requests came from my friend, she draws as well but doesn't like to color so she draws the pictures and then I color them for her so we work together pretty much. But honestly, I think it's better if I just do it for it is a little tricky to color a picture that wasn't from your program.

I did the Frozen picture that I already told about in my past post, but since then I did a Hulk and a Unicorn. These are just samples of them, my friend didn't sign on one of them but she did draw them and I colored them.

This is a request from a little girl, she wanted herself on a pink unicorn, pretty good I think. The background is only clouds and a rainbow but I think it gives you an idea where this unicorn lives or taking her to a magical place. 

When my friend asks me to color this picture she first was going to draw the aliens, dudes, from Avengers, but they were too hard to draw, and honestly, I'm happy she didn't for that sounded like it would be hard color. This wasn't so difficult to color, I actually really enjoyed coloring it, it was simply not too hard to figure out the background, this was all in all a really simple picture.

I recently made a video called Mother Hood 2: The Type of mother I am, I had this at the end of last year, I was thinking how I was taking care of my kids VS other mothers, I have seen how other mothers treat their kids and notice how some were odd, some were really good but not something I would do. I made it long before Mother's day for I wasn't sure when to post it and was afraid of getting judgments, for this video does contain blood. But when Mother's Day came I was like, "Today is perfect," so I got it uploaded in the morning and posted it. It didn't take long to load for its only about 6 minutes long.

My first kid is the curly hair one as the other is my youngest kid with the bow in her hair. Though she doesn't like wearing bows she doesn't have much hair. My youngest is my sunshine that's why her color is yellow, as my oldest is my Princess, my pretty pink spoiled princess. They are my world, I don't know what I'll do without them, they have saved me too many times, I'm very grateful to have them in my life.

In this video I explain what kind of mother I am, there's not a name for it but I said that I'm mediocre, I don't even know if that would be the right word for it but I'm pretty chill what they do or eat as long it's not always a piece of cake and it's not in spikes of death. I do take care of them, I make sure they are fed, love and sleep, but when they are playing I am playing or doing my stuff like chores, being a mother doesn't mean stare at your kids all day that would be just insane. 

In the video, I do mention how judgmental I can be with other mothers, but I don't like to tell them I do. In both experiences I tell are true, one was from a friend I know that is a little rough with her kid but it's not my place to tell her if she wants to grab her baby like that then ok, but with the other dude I mention...that toss the baby on a bed, that maybe someone that I got myself into, I was very upset when he did it and did punish him so.

I'm not perfect mom, I learn each day what to do for my kids, my first child is potential may be autistic but I haven't got her c checked so I don't know but she is learning slower than my last kid. My last kid is already saying my name and such, my first kid didn't until later so I know there's something going on and it is more challenging to understand her needs, but I am trying my best and love her so much. 

One mother asked me why I don't co-sleep with my kids and I'm like, "Oh no, it's my bed, my time," I mean I didn't mind when they were just babies and need me to feed them during the night so it's easier for them to stay in bed with me, but by the time they should be sleeping through the whole night I think they should be in their bed. I also don't mind if they come in the middle of the night with a bad dream or just want to sleep next me for no reason that's ok, I have let them sleep with me but I just don't prefer it. 

I do let my kids watch TV all day for I do it too, but they do play while it's playing I have never seen them actually sat through a whole movie, they would sit still in the beginning and then in the middle of it they get up and want to play. I have it on so I can have it as white noise as I work on my books and such. Even before I had kids I always needed something playing, I would watch Spongebob, or my brothers would play video games, playing music, just something while I draw, I just can't work in silence for some reason.

So this week I have worked on Sweet and Sour, for once I have worked one page a day this week for...a while. (Remember I was dealing with my personal life I needed space). But I want to focus on this book and others. I am almost 27 years and I was hoping to do stuff with my books by this time, (really I don't know when I would but I didn't think it will take this long), but the point is I have so many books I want to create, Sweet and Sour, The Legendary Warrior, Flower In the Dust, Moon Princess and Gaining Altitude.