Can't Sleep

I have a problem, since my knee surgery I sleep mainly during the day than at night and it's driving me crazy. I only got three to four hours of sleep just now and it's almost seven o'lock in the morning on Feb 26 2019.

What do you do if you can't sleep? I have tried reading, counting sheep, being more active during the day and try not to nap during the day, and yet nothing. It's weird that it's not my kids that keeping up, nope it's me.

So in my last post I explain my knee problems and how it has stopped me from dancing. I still would love to dance, if I could start over I would try to stay in ballet class and perform in my point shoes till I'm so old that I can't balance anymore.

I was one of the best dancer in my class, OK not the best dancer I still couldn't do a lot of things such as particular moves I still had to work on but like memory wise if someone needed help on a move in a dance that they forgot I would tell you, I am a visual learner. If you don't know or forgotten I have C.A.P.D go check out my two videos on YouTube about it, it will explain what that is, basically its a hearing disorder and so I prefer learning by visualizing.


> C.A.P.D first video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m5tggbHOnjY&t=20s

>C.A.P.D Second video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aJYvBqsBWDw


Anyways when I was in dance class I love learning the dances and performing them, and every time there's a sub everyone points to me to help her on any dances, and it made me feel special, and it was easy really they weren't hard. I catch on some moves faster than some do cause when they show it to me I pay real attention at it and manage. Even when I was young, the teachers would have to come on stage to help the little ones how to do the dance and I didn't need their help I was doing it without looking at them, that made me special as well.

One time I was in a different type of dance class, they only did Lyrical Jazz and hip hop and they had two dance studios at a time, so the older class would be one as the younger ones would be the other and every so often we would combine and show off each other dances. We would do past dances and our future dances.

Before I came they did a dance to Let's get loud and I wasn't in it but they showed us this dance in class so many times that I got it down, so one time when they were doing this dance I was off the side and danced with them and so many were shock that I knew the dance, and I'm like how can you not know? Right? My teachers loved me, I was always late but at least I came every time even when they know I have hurt my knee I still come, dancing was something I was so passion about.

I would always make my sisters and friends do a dance with me, I even did my own dance class and I probably already said that in my last post but it was something I wanted to keep doing, still do, but after my knee surgery I just don't know if I can...well maybe not for a while.

My dreams and heart still on dancing. I would get jealous to see other girls or guys that can dance amazing, I don't really watch dance competitions for I get too jealous, but I do once in a while and would pick and choose who I think is fantastic, I do watch Dance Moms and the some of the moms do drive me crazy and feel like they should get along or something its so ridiculous but anyways it's the drama they like for the TV show, but I really enjoy watching the girls compete.

I have already shown this picture in my last post, which you can read> https://flanngyslastdraw.blogspot.com/2019/02/a-little-delay-because-of-knee-sugery.html

Even though I love dancing you have to know that I'm not the one to dance at weddings or parties...yep, each time I go to a wedding or a party every one is dancing and I just sit and eat cake. Everyone tries to get me to dance and every time I do I just get so awkward and don't like dancing randomly and so people have told me I'm a party pooper. Well can't make me do something I don't like or feel comfortable with. If their was like dance games on the Wii or such I would do it, if their was a dance with a routine that repeats then I would do it, I can't just 'dance', that's why I made my own dance routine on my wedding day with my hubby and my bride maids and grooms men. 

A little delay because of Knee Sugery

I got my knee surgery done on February 12 and it has been the worst experience of pain I have ever dealt with.

Yes I had two pregnancy that end up with C-sections, but I feel like this has hurt more than that. They had to shave some of the bone of that knee cap a little for my knee cap shape was off. That's unpleasant to know, that wasn't part of the deal.

I had knee problems going up, ever since I was ten, I remember when it first happen. I was dancing in my backyard with my sister and I thought she poke it or something fort it slip out for a second. After that experience it would happen again at dance recitals, walking, sitting, doing the splits, and so forth.

When I was sixteen I was getting out of bed and the knee cap completely went out and it stayed. It usually would go back in but not this time. It hurt so bad, I didn't know what to do, I tried to straighten it, but it felt weird and hurt more I couldn't do it. I screamed for help and my mom came in the room and was trying to see how to get me to the hospital for she didn't know what to do. My hand finally pushed it back in. For my spiritual side I believe it was my spirit that did it for me since I couldn't do it. I was so relief when it went back in. But wasn't the end.

My knee has nothing holding my knee cap, they finally did a MRI scan to find that out and have two options, either wear a certain brace to hold it for the rest of my life or do surgery to fix the problem. I went with surgery for I didn't like the brace. Well now I don't like the surgery.

But its probably a good improvement, I'll probably won't dance again but will certainly do the daily things like walking. I was a dancer, it was something I wanted to be growing up. I started dance class when I was seven. I did gymnastics first when I was like four or five and quit at six for I didn't like it as much, but at least I learn how to do a cartwheel, and when I started doing dance classes I fell in love.

I did Ballet Jazz, and modern and some of my friends think Jazz is the best or hip hop, but honestly I loved ballet, when I started learning lyrical that was my second favorite. I really thought I was going to be a professional ballet dancer, for I would practice at home during movie time, in the kitchen in my bedroom, I never missed a day of class. Ok maybe a few but for good reasons like I was really sick.

When I was 15 I had to stop for my knee was getting worst, and it was getting to expensive the more higher class I went. I continue to dance on my own I started my own dance studio in my unfinished basement and that was my favorite job and got about ten kids. I only charged $10 dollars a month, that's like dirt cheap. But I was just a teen didn't know how to run a business so after three years of doing dance classes and did 6 performances kids stop coming to class, some moms were nice as others were not. If I could do it again now I would better at it, but I had to stop for I was going on a mission along with my knee still being a problem.

After years I was getting married and wanted a dance with all of my ten bridesmaids and 4 groom men's, well only half of the bridesmaids did it along with one of my groom men. I taught them the dance and it was so awesome on my wedding day, it was at first just me and my new hubby dancing and then close to the end of the song everyone jumped in and dance till the end. I wish I have a recording of it for it was the best thing ever on my wedding day.

But sadly that was the last time I danced.

This picture shows the affects of my knee destroying my ballet career. I could be rich going around the world dancing, it was something I love.

I have done one competition when I was in dance class and I won third place on my solo. I wasn't the greatest dancer but I loved doing it, you can ask my sisters and friends and they will tell you when we were kids I always made them dance with me, choregraphing was my special ability and something I love doing. Still do, if I can get this knee better I'll probably do Zumba as a exercise activity. Maybe.

But anyways the point of this post was to tell you that since my knee surgery I can't draw. Well I've been in so much pain that even watching TV doesn't help, I have been on this bed crying. I hope the pain will subside and I can get back on my desk to draw. 

I have found a way to draw in my bed and it seems to work, I'm using a portable dinner table thing to put my laptop on and then put the tablet on my lap. The only problem I have is moving it when I need to get up or when the baby cries and my hubby needs me to hold her, I don't have a place to put it, it takes up the bed. But I am trying for I am bored, the whole week all I did was watch YouTube and it got me bored to tears, so I need this to help me. I can't wait to clean the house and do laundry and even take a shower. I have taken a shower but I won't do it again until I'm better for that was so hard, I think it did more bad than good.

Januray National days

Ok so this week I took a break from drawing. It happens you need a break, but also I wasn't doing too well. I went to my knee doctor and discovered we are doing a knee surgery soon. I think I'll be ok, he said I can put weight on it when it's done but I'm sure it's gonna hurt.

I hope you guys are watching out my national day's, it's been great doing them and getting the chance to post them on the days they are meant to be posted.

January 28 was National Fun at Work Day, and I don't know exactly what this meant as in it's a day for everyone stop working and have fun, or try to have fun while working. Not sure but I feel like every job you work is work, just like how school is school, not much fun about it.

January 26 was Spouse day, besides celebrating with your spouse on Valentines day or our Anniversary there's an actual day for celebrating our spouses. We didn't do anything just said how much we love each other. The poem on the picture was a poem I sang to him on our wedding day, so it's not the whole poem just the chorus. 

January 24 was compliment day and peanut butter day, I wasn't sure how to do compliment day so I just did something that these sisters would do. They do love each other but they are siblings so they have to mean to each other, that's what siblings do right?

January 23 was Pie day and Handwriting day, besides the actual PI day that everyone knows there's a actual day for Pie's, I didn't eat a pie that day but maybe you did. Pies are not my thing, I prefer cheesecake. 

Handwriting day is a good reminder to us to remember to write with our hands and not always use technology to express our writing and drawing.

I don't know much about Martin Luther King, but I do know that he was a good man with faith, I really like this quote that I found by him.

National hug day was on the same day as Martin Luther King day, January 21. 

January 29, puzzle day. I don't like puzzles, I can solve puzzles in video games and such but doing a actual puzzle is something I can't do. I have siblings that would spend hours doing a puzzle and can finish them so fast. Each time I try to help I get so bored and just give up. 

 January 27 punch a clock day and chocolate cake day. Punch the clock is a work thing, and I don't know if people still do that kind of thing at work so I decided to take it literally. Ha, I find it so funny.

Chocolate cake...hmmmmmmmmmm.

January 31 was Inspire your heat with art day, and I enjoy looking at people art on Pinterest so if it's something you like to do I hope this picture has taken you somewhere where you have never been before.

January 28 bubble wrap day, I do like popping some bubble wrap it just so satisfying. 

January 18, it was someone birthday that created Winnie the Pooh, I just did a post about it and how I saw the recent movie about it. 

I just saw Wreck It Ralph 2 and I really enjoy it but have one complaint, first they should just win the car, for every game can restart so once they get the car win the money the game restarts and they have the car again, or is that not something? Besides that I really like the twists and turns and in the end ended with a really good message. 

Ok I hope this next coming up week will do more of my book, I have reach 100 pages and done 2 chapters and getting into chapter three. I'll probably have to do chapter four and five so I can finish this book with 200 pages. 200 pages seems a good amount for a book don't you think?