Thursday, February 23, 2023

Conflicted With Life

 Hello, people of the world, Krissy here with another blog post.


I don't know, who has been reading my blogs, but I want to say thank you so much for doing so. 😁 I have been a little conflicted with life, trying to provide for my kids, and figuring out about my art. If you didn't know I do work at a thrift store, and I asked to reduce my hours because 8-3:30 was just too much. I mean yes that's typical hours to be working but then I get too tired to do anything else like drawing, working on my books, etc. Even sometimes taking care of my kids. 

Taking care of my kids.

Drawing, I'm sure my kids are doing just fine.

Being with my kids.

    I want to be there for them, make sure they are fed, etc. But when the hours I worked, I just wanted to feed them something simple like toast and a banana. At least they are fed, right? I did not like that. My feet would be sore, and I was just so depressed. I want to not onfeed them andwith them, take them to a park, help them ride a bike or a scooter, and go to a museum or maybe even a library. I was too tired and exhausted to do any of that. I felt like I needed; Ichange; I did come home once just yelling, "How do people work a full-time job!?! I don't get it! I on't like it; I'm not happy; I'm so tired!"


    Now for those that do work full time, I think that is so great for you, that is a lot to do, and if you like it or love it, like beiteache,r, or a doct,or or whatever a great career is so good! We need teachers, doctors, and such. I am so grateful for those that you guys deserve so much! I just don't know how you do it. For I only did part-time and can't keep up with it. But if anything, if I could be a full-time artist, my dudes, I would!

    When I started this blog, I wanted to see my journey progress, becoming an illustrator, publishing my books, and such. Going through thick and thin. A lot has happened since I started, I became a single mom, and I published two books, not one but two! Being a little popular on Tik Tok, Youtube, and Instagram. Now I just feel stuck, I reduce my hours at work from 28 hours a week to 15, and honestly, it's great, I feel like a can get a lot done and be more of a mom. But I feel stuck. 

    I'm not selling as much, (which is to be expected), I have to keep my job and also looking for a new job since I moved, (want a job closertoI find it stupid. I wish I could be a full-time artist and full-time mom, that would be my ideal life. 

    So I hope I can figure out my life, and hope you guys are figuring out yours, tell me about your thoughts and feelings aboutthis subject, life sucks, but it's whatever. I'm not stopping doing art, I still have to finish the third book of Sweet And Sour, do not forget to get your copy, here arethe the links. 

Sweet and Sour Book 1

Sweet and Sour Book 2

    Here's the latest work I've done; I'll do another post explaining them.

Original Painting, I am Soaring, Youtube video link here.

Ebb and Flow Gamerz latest video. Link here.






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