Hmm--hmm-hm! I got a super-duper big curly mustache! It's a way of showing how confused I am in my situation.
Hello, so I am puzzled about something. I have explained about Sweet and Sour already about how it's only going to be a small series... possibly only two books but now I am wondering if that's really what I should do.
I have other stories that I really want to work on that are more potentially longer and better and exciting to read. Sweet and Sour is a good story but I wanted it to be short for reasons that I have already explained but I'll say it again. Sweet and Sour was a story for me to practice on, for I had no idea what I was doing when I started drawing on my tablet and wanted to figure it out first before I work on other stories.
I had a good friend look over my story and told me what to fix, but as we were talking about it I feel like maybe I should try making it three stories, but there's no way I could now if I could the third story would be super short. So I don't know what to do. I am stuck.
I would like to finish the book, it will only be two books so will that be so bad? I can't make it one book that would be too much...will it? Maybe it might be fine, should I try making it one book?? I don't know I feel like there is so much going on with the second book that I don't know what to do. I could try making it three books, but if I do that then I might have to make the first book shorter and try to expand it out for three could be better than two...right?
I don't know, I am so lost right now I am not sure what to do, so I am taking a break from Sweet and Sour and been writing Flower in the Dust, I have made changes in the story from what I drew out in sketchbook form but I feel like these changes are making it better and it's making me really excited to do it.
This here is a Vlog video check it out!
I have started to draw the story already and this is what I got so far. Flower in the Dust Chapter one Life on a Farm.
That's all I have and been writing the story now, once the written vision is done I'll get more into it on my laptop and tablet. I hope you liked it so far please tell me your thoughts! It is not edited, so I'm sorry if I misspelled or grammar isn't good just know I am not good in English.
Oh my goodness this vlog took forever to do. For the past few weeks I kept telling myself that I need to record a vlog, I need to update a video, I need to do my vlog!! I wanted to do a vlog every week but things got in the way like New Year and the sickness. The SICKNESS! I was miserable, if you don't know anything about it you can check out the last post of my blog, I already blogged it out and said stuff about it on my video down below.
I think I did a good job at the thumbnail, sure the body is off for I did make the head bigger and didn't blend it very well, but I think it's cute and maybe I need to do more of that kind of thing for if you see what I did with vlog number 1 and 2 it's just the same picture just different feature.
I have worked so hard this whole week, I have done so well this week. I get up to feed my kids, clean the house if needed, sit down and work. Feed the kids lunch, put down for naps sit down and work. Feed the kids dinner, clean the house if needed, dishes, vacuum, laundry, put away toys, work some more if needed too or just relax get the kids to bed and go to bed. I did that every day this week and I have accomplished so much but right now I'm losing it. My mind is going nuts, I need to get out, I need a date my hubby or just go out somewhere besides my home.
It is so hard to be stuck at home with kids and working on my books. I know that when I was working a job it was harder to draw my book for when I get home I am exhausted and just want to rest. Now that I don't have a job it is easier to work on my book but harder to get out of the house.
I'm on the fence again if I should find a job or not. It was nice to have a job so it gets me out of the house, but at the same time, it was hard to compromise with my hubby job and finding a babysitter for my kids. It is just too stressful and that's one of the reasons why I don't want a job at the moment, I don't want to worry about finding a babysitter.
There is a daycare that I know that's not far from me and it is possible I can get the state to pay for me, but at the same time, I don't want to worry how the heck to do that. Life can be so difficult and stressful, that has caused so much anxiety. Like taxes.
I know how to do taxes now, I'm a pro but I remember the first time I did it and I had no idea I was supposed to do it. No one told me about taxes when I first got married and started a new life I had no idea what taxes where. But do not worry, we figured it out. They should have taught us about taxes in school, and if they did or do...they failed me.
Look how cute that picture is! I don't know why I find it so cute, it's so cute!
When I have been working so hard all week on my books, it's good to relax with some painting. Yes, painting is relaxing. well so is drawing but I don't have to figure out too much about it like how what and why it should look like. Painting a picture is so nice, and I have done two pictures this week.
This picture is a picture of that girl finding herself in a fog and discovered a man in a cap. I know it's kind of hard to see her and him but it's supposed to be a fog so that's the idea. But maybe I should have made her more clear for it is starting to bug me how I can't see her eyes very well.
I'm not going to fix it.
I'm stubborn like that.
She's a princess and he is a high soldier. He protects her, but also loves her, he becomes her best friend and always wants to be with her. But she does get engaged to a prince and that ruined for him. But he still stays by her side.
I think it's a really cute picture, it shows he's a character so much for her. he is so handsome and charming, and his love for her is so cute. If only there were real men like him, he is the typical man I want. (Don't tell my hubby. I don't have feelings for a non-fictional character that I have mastered).
Pretty strange to look at, this picture right here. That's because it is strange, I edited it in a way where the right eye is off big time and the mouth is huge. But even when it was normal it didn't look that great as well.
Do you see what I mean? She isn't that great looking and I don't like it. Her mouth especially looks so wrong, I don't like looking at it.
You see I tried to do something new and different, I watch some channels on youtube of artist painting amazing pictures of these real people. They can take an anime or cartoon characters and make them look so real and I wanted to try that on my character Joy. Well it didn't go so well, after a while doing her she started to look like the ugly version of sonic and I didn't think it will end well. As much as it looks better once it's all done I still don't like it, she doesn't look like joy and just doesn't look like a good person. Like possibly the eyes look ok but everything else doesn't fit well.
As I was done with this picture I thought maybe I can do better, after watching some videos of some other artists doing their stuff I tried learning from them and tried again. And even though I keep trying to do their tactics on how they did it, it still doesn't turn out great. I fail, I failed twice.
This looks slightly better but still not enough, what am I doing wrong? Or is it just that Joy can't look good as a realistic person, or I just don't have that talent. Her mouth and nose look better but still, there's something about it that makes me cringed. I just didn't do that look that looks real, I kept blending, mixing, colors and do what others do to make it look realistic but I just don't get it. I don't get how they do it and make it look so good.
They also took hours of hours to do one picture, this only took me 2 hours to do each picture.
As for this picture only took me half an hour. This is Joy what she's supposed to look like in her original form. She looks so much better like that for one thing it is not complicated to draw her, her eyes are huge but fun, her nose is just a half triangle and her mouth is a triangle. The only thing that was hard to do is painting, painting her skin hair and eyes and it turns out great! But when I was doing her in a realistic way for some reason everything was a challenge, everything, lining, painting you name it, why? I don't know why I was trying something new and different and didn't turn out great.
Even this picture looks better than the real ones. This was the first picture I've tried to paint on my tablet and a year later I made the better version of it and you can defiantly tell that I am improving my painting skills.
This is the most recent one of her, it's her on her date with Izumi, she is so pretty and so glamourous. The painting was not a problem in this picture, it has gotten easier and easier than I thought I could do something I don't normally do and, well, maybe I feel disappointed that it turns out well. I tried two times and each time didn't turn out the way I wanted too. Maybe I can keep trying but I want to keep my focus on my books and videos. I really enjoy making my books, I do hope someday I get to publish so much and people will buy them and know what my drawing looks like so when they find a book and it looks like my type of book they know exactly who it's by without looking for the author on it. I don't know I have done that, my favorite manga illustrator is Arina Tanemura, she has made a bunch of books and I remember one time when I went to Barns and Noble and saw a book that had her type of art on it I knew it was by her and wanted that book even if I didn't know what it was about I just enjoy her books by her art.
But my all-time favorite manga of all time is From Far Away, they aren't in stores anymore so I am very grateful that I was able to get them when they first came out. You might still get to read them from libraries but I doubt it.
Watch the video on Youtube or right here and see what I mean, I talk about other crap in the video also so please give it a listen thank you.
I didn't have a good week...I was feeling like death.
For the first video of the year 2020, I have posted a short animation of how I feel about public breastfeeding. And luckily I got 20 views in the first week! But that's it for now so go check it out and tell me your opinion, the reason I did this video is to give my feedback about it and I wanted to hear yours. I know that this topic is touchy to some but I don't know I just want to know what you think about it.
I haven't been able to do any drawing for a whole week and that's because I have been so sick with Influenza B.
Yes I was super sick, had aches and pains all over my body felt like I hit a bus, my throat hurt the worst that I really thought maybe I had strep, but they checked and it wasn't strep but, man, did it hurt, it even hurt to breath. Talking was impossible to do, and it was impossible to take care of my kids. My hubby was sick with influenza plus pneumonia, and my kids got sick as well. My older kid got influenza b and we don't know what my baby had, it kept coming negative for her to have influenza b but she was sick as well with fever and a couch. So I don't know but I do know that I barely function and couldn't function.
My family helped a lot, they brought over meals for us mainly soup for that's all I wanted to eat. But now that I am better soup is the last thing I want. I am so glad that it is over. It was horrible. I have never been a situation where both parents are super sick along with the kids so it was impossible to rest and take care of each other. I cried so much for being in so much pain and not able to function to take care of my kids, change their diapers, feed them and etc.
Now that I am better I am trying to schedule myself to draw and stick to it. So far it's been great but I just know if I keep going on this schedule I am going to break it, but I must keep it I must draw! My schedule is that I get up at eight in the morning (which is still tricky to do, but my older child has been getting up at that time so maybe she can help me out.) Eat breakfast, do a little bit of cleaning if it needs, by the time its ten I must draw and draw until lunchtime which is typically noon, then once I feed the kids I put them down for naps and draw again and I either draw until five or do something protective like making videos, sketchy, etc until five which is the time to make dinner if my hubby doesn't make it. Once dinner is done I then do a lot of cleaning, pick up toys, vacuum, dishes, laundry, etc. By eight I give the girls a bath and get them ready for bed by the time is nine they are in bed and I can either keep drawing or just get myself ready for bed including scripture study and watch Youtube videos until I fall asleep.
I have done this schedule a few times and I really like it, yesterday I manage to do it just fine so I need to keep doing that. But doesn't mean I won't go insane I must have a date night and maybe go out a few times a week just to keep myself insane. I enjoy having date nights and family nights, I enjoy being with my family it's fun for them and fun for me. Even just going to my parents or my hubby parents just for a while helps me feel better for it's getting out of the house and doing something instead stuck inside all the time.
I want this to be my job, for I have tried having a job a few times and it doesn't seem to work, for I either pass out during my shifts or finding a nanny for my kids, it doesn't work out. I would like to be a stay home mom making money by my books and Youtube videos. I am learning about how to make my channel better I would like to do a gaming channel for I love games, but the problem is I don't have a way to do that. I tried doing Roblox games and my laptop won't download any games for it doesn't have enough memory. So if I have computer maybe I'll do that kind of channel but right now I'm doing a Vlog channel and an art, manga, animation, music videos, channel...yeah that's a lot for one channel I don't really know the actual theme for it but it's main art for I have done lots of art tutorial, speedpaints, and such.
When I was feeling better I decided the first thing I'll draw is a picture and paint it.
This is in my friend story that I am working on and actually have gotten far in it, I'm on page 42, which is surprising to me for I feel like I have been working more on Sweet and Sour but still on page 24 with Sweet and Sour, I might finish my friend story first before Sweet and Sour number 2. Anyways this picture is the main character in the story and they work together in this restaurant, so I wanted to draw them working together in their restaurant and having fun with it for they enjoy the work and each other. They do everything, cooking, cleaning, serving and such for this tiny restaurant in this tiny village. But as I was drawing this picture I had no idea what kind of foods they really serve so this is just a big guess and I like how did the food, it looks good to me. But I had a hard time with the background, I didn't like how dark the kitchen is, I tried lightening it but doesn't seem to be working so I did it again with jut a random color background.
I actually love this background, I did a vote on Instagram and Facebook about which one the viewers like best and the winner is this one. It's so cool and shows more how much they enjoy working with each other and such. I love their outfits I find it so cute and I hope it's not too much pink or anything. For the bow is red but the girl on the left has red hair so is that too much of red? I hope not. I don't know why she has a stick in the water picture maybe possibly making a drink of some kind, I don't know but I wanted her to do more with her hands not just holding a water picture.
