Eating Lemons

 Chapter four in process, this was the picture after I did Chapter Four and decided to color it.

 Imogen has a rough past but is trying to making it up by repenting and follow God, all she wants to do is be a Savior and serve for God.

I am sketching out chapter five of Sweet and Sour, and I am pretty sure that this story will end with chapter five. That's what I think anyway. I had a dream last night that I published my first book of Sweet and Sour and got a bunch of copies of it but it looks nothing like the story I did, it looked advanced and a completely different story, I was so upset, but good thing it was just a dream right?

So I just recently did a quick video of me trying lemon and try doing it with a straight face, but I did not, I failed. It was so sour it burned my whole mouth, I did not like it. My sister who participate in loves eating lemons, she can eat them the way they are and I don't know how she does it.

Very short video but funny and to the point. 

I am still working on the other video the animation, it's going to be called Being A Missionary, and it's about a few clips of me and my siblings that have served on their missions. Being a missionary was great but hard.

I am thinking about doing another video about being a missionary but just be the song I wrote about it called Hard Job, it was one of the hardest job I have ever done and the only thing I was paid back was love and blessings.

But I don't know, I am thinking to make it like I did with hourglass, speed drawing a picture while playing my original song.

I also wrote Hourglass during my mission but didn't figure out the music till after I came home. I also did Big Fat Bruise, I have to give credit to one of my companions that helped me with that song, but I mainly did it. I made a tune on the piano all throughout my mission but didn't have any lyrics until I had a companion that gave me lyrics idea and I put it together with that tune and it's one of my favorite songs. Maybe I should do that one as well, for it is a very good song like Hourglass.

I love music. Even though I am not a pro at music like I am still learning how to read notes...sort of. I still like making music. 

Oh and eating that lemon did things to my tongue and so I will never eat a plain lemon again.

Flanngy Making Doughnuts

One video is done! I promise a video with Flanngy and I have done it, now I have to do the other video that I promised that should be done soon.

I am planning the future to make more videos, in fact, I have already sketched out at least 60 videos, and they are The Intriguing Life of Nonny Whitney Tutu.

Tutorials on how to draw and such. 

More videos about my life. 

And more of Flanngy videos. 

I have done quite a bit of try not to get scared and laugh challenges, and I possibly might do more but not any time soon for I feel I did too much already.

https://youtu.be/4coLoxtHais

https://youtu.be/4egu71cvAcs

So yeah check those videos out that I have done so far, making doughnuts was fun with my friend Pedro, who is really my youngest sister that accepted the role. 

Why do we get down when theirs no reason

I am not doing too well today. I have been feeling so like this

all week last week, I was getting things done, my house is clean all the time, I have been working on my videos and book. But today this morning I felt like this. 

I am so down today, losing my patience with my kids, I do outburst of anger at them and then apologizes afterward. I feel like screaming and crying.

Maybe taking a nap will help. I need to get back in my good mood for I am doing my Flanngy video today with the help of my sister. I hate feeling like this.

Does this feeling just happen cause I was doing so good and there has to be a downfall? Or is it because I am a girl? 👧👧🛊

I don't know, I really need to work on my video of Being A Missionary and my Flanngy video plus my book, I finished chapter three and need to do chapter four and see if that's where I'll end the first book. It's possible there might be a chapter five it just depends when I get to 200 pages that's my goal.

My knee is still a problem, the other day I slip on water and was doing the splits but can feel my knee trying to get out of place like it usually does, but since the surgery tighten it, it couldn't. But once I got up pain shoot up on my leg from my knee. I walk it off just fine it was a weird experience but it also fears me that maybe I am going to have a knee problem for the rest of my life and can't get away from it.

I'm having a meltdown.

Don't get scared challenge

I did a new type of challenge, I did try not to get scared challenge, and I didn't get scared for I didn't jump or screamed but did laugh...Are you kidding me? I can't laugh at funny things but laugh at a scary thing? It's not entirely dumb but sort of it is.

I am going to make more of this type of challenge and see if I don't scream or laugh, I am going to try not to laugh while watching a horror thing, or just a jump scare thing.

I have finished chapter three and unto chapter four, about 117 pages, I still want to reach to 200 so I am getting close. I either just going to end the book after chapter four or tried to add chapter five. Chapter five is going to be more serious on feelings about Izumi, I know you probably don't know what I'm talking about but if you read the first chapter,
 https://flanngyslastdraw.blogspot.com/2018/10/first-unedited-chapter-of-sweet-and-sour.html if shows how Izumi is unhappy about this situation that he is in and wishes he doesn't have to deal with it. So for chapter five, we are going to see if we will get him to smile and be happy.

I love Susie, Susie has really grown on me, she wasn't a character in the first time I tried to attempt to make this story, but so glad I added her for she really brings joy in the story.

I have made another try not to laugh challenge, the link is here.

> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4coLoxtHais <

I was on my parent's computer the other day was looking if there were any music videos that I made back in the days were still in on there, and I found this one, The Con by Tegan and Sara. My friend and I made this video when we were teenagers, just about to graduate high school so I look so young and thin. I miss that. 

If you know Bad Body Double by Imogen Heap that's what I feel from watching this video, and the funny thing is that we made a music video to Bad body double, I don't know where it is I know that my friend has a copy of it maybe I can try to retrieve it. 

Also I look so young and thin in these videos, I love making videos I think being a YouTuber is my thing from now on. I am making my animations and the Flanngy video like I said I would in my other post, https://flanngyslastdraw.blogspot.com/2019/03/explaining-future-videos.html I am really enjoying doing videos and animations. I did take a video class in high school and I have to say that I hardly learned anything, the teacher would say a few things at the beginning of class and then goes in his room while we all do nothing but talk and such. I didn't have any friends in that class so it was really awkward for me to do any work. I felt like I wasted a semester for taking that class, the only thing I have learned is how to hold a camera.

I want that good looking body back, even though it's not the greatest and maybe back then I thought that I was super fat but I want it back.

I can laugh and smile I promise

I am so tired, I am dealing with a lot, looking for a job taking care of my kids, going to physical therapy, and dealing with some personal issues. I have been getting so tired more frequent that I'm glad that my baby goes to bed at eight o'clock so I can get ready and go to bed by nine...sometimes ten, I still have things to do when my baby is finally down like doing my blog, drawing my book, drawing, and I enjoy watching shows that I can enjoy watching.

I just did something new, I made a Try Not To Laugh challenge video, you can check it out and try the challenge for yourself. It was my first time and thought I was doing everything right, but the fact that I got the video recorded sideways shows that I don't know how to do anything and hopefully in the future, I can get that better.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NgaCrZjXAUY

The thing is I didn't really laugh, and I don't know if that means if I am just good at not laughing or I'm just a boring person. I know its a challenge and I possibly won it for I didn't laugh in this video, but I have seen people do these types of challenges and I laugh every time cause of their reaction for not trying, I feel like I didn't get that and feel like I failed.

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I can laugh, and I can smile.

Check out my Fake Smiles video, I feel great about that video, its short to the point and has my original song in it. I first made the song when I was 18, but re-wrote it just recently for the video sake for the original version was kind of harsh and wasn't great singing to it.

I am going to do more of the try not to laugh challenge videos in the future. I feel like I need to prove that I can smile.