Let's explain a dark Tale

With my last post, I was remembering why I want this, it's something I would love to do as a job and would love one day to get a call saying that I am invited to an art center or whatever singing books or my arts, and just get a little recognized and may able to perform my songs and just make everyone laugh and have a good time. That seems really fun to me but I don't know if I ever get there for first I need to finish my book Sweet and Sour.


It is something I wanted since 14, I was confused who I was and what I wanted to do at age 20-23, I was not drawing for I was not sure why I was. I was doing Gaining Altitude and couldn't bring myself to draw, nor singing or playing the piano I was just confused and didn't know if I did do this I won't go anywhere. But like I have said before my friend Beth has changed everything when she has managed to publish her first book, it did give me hope but I didn't know what to do about it, didn't know who to talk to or how to start. What I wanted was a nice drawing tablet and I didn't get that till years later.

I was so excited when my friend Beth gave me my tablet and it's working and hasn't stopped working. My laptop did and money is so tight that I manage to get one with luck but still, money is tight and it is stressing me out.

This here is a big give away about Izumi past and basics of his background. I have explained about his story in a different post. https://flanngyslastdraw.blogspot.com/2018/09/oh-my-goodness-its-been-while-and-its.html but in the story, Susie tells the tale about him for it was one of her projects she had to do as his savior (AKA Angel).

It is a tragic story, so dark, I love how I did the background in that and Susie hair came out perfect. Susie's hair is a little difficult, it's supposed to be curly hair but sometimes I feel like I keep doing it wrong or something.

I also wanted to show how close Susie and Lark are, Lark trusts Susie more than anyone and she relies on Susie for she knows Susie is the one that can do it.

Angels have the power, in the angel world there are rules and degrees, once you become a Savior you get to go thru the mortal or immortal door and once you do you get a bracelet that is their communicators, if they went thru the mortal door they can use their bracelets to become immortal for a while, being immortal you have your wings and halo and be unseen to the human eyes. Mortal is when you don't have your wings or halo and you are seen by humans and can get hurt. These bracelets let them have use of heaven powers, they can use it to have the things they need like furniture for their apartment, money to have the apartment. It can help them find crystals but only if they are near, it will vibrate if they are like five feet away from it. 

Susie and Lark are completely different kind of peoples, Susie is more happy and energetic, while Lark is more not. And yet Lark loves being around Susie more than anyone...even her twin sister Joy.

Everyone in this story has a Dark Tale, Izumi has one for his eye resembles it, Destiny the main villain especially has one, Drake, Imogen, Joy, Lark, Wyatt, and even Susie. Sure Chiaki has one along with Bartholomew but not as dark as the others.

Drake had a terrible past of abuse and neglect. 

Chiaki had father issues and couldn't bring children to the world but loves his wife dearly.

Susie had to raise her brother and sisters at the age of 6 and the youngest sibling was just a newborn, her parents never home so to survive she got herself and her siblings in a foster home. 

Imogen got kidnapped and was abused starving to death and been raped multiple times in a hole in the ground.

Wyatt got Leukemia died in late teens but was very neglected, no one supported him.

Destiny, abused, neglected, kidnapped, sex slave, and starved to death. She was literally going thru the worst of the worst.

Joy was the favorite but wanted to be friends with Lark, Lark was jealous of the attention Joy was getting so she pushed her away and hated that people never saw her as Lark, and all Joy wanted was the relationship that sisters should have with Lark.

Remembering What I'm Doing

I got the chance to go see the movie Detective Pokemon with my friends and I have to say that the show was a lot better than expected. I have watched Pokemon when I was a child but wasn't something I was into so I didn't go crazy watching it like I did with Rurouni Kenshin, Yu-gi-oh, Hamtaro, and Sailor Moon.

But I would give Detective Pokemon 5 out of 5 stars, and would most definitely watch it again.

My friend that I went to see it was my good friend Beth, I don't know if I can use her name for I haven't asked but we are going to call her Beth. She has successfully published four of her books and I have colored three of the covers for her for she claims I am much better at coloring books than she is. I was hanging out at her place before the movie and I got to see her doing her work, she uses a different software than me but she has accomplished so much in her books and is willing to do the book that I have asked her to do long time ago only because I wanted to know how that felt for I have down books for others like my sisters and for my friends. I was doing stories for others and for myself of course, but I wanted someone to do a story for me to see how that goes and I came up a short story.

It is a short story, she keeps forgetting that thinking it is a long story but it isn't, I only made it short for short reasons. She has other projects to deal with anyways so it shouldn't be a big deal, but she keeps thinking it should be a long story. But it isn't, it's a book full of ninja's and a crystal. She is planning on doing my story slowly for she is still doing her current one which is called Lost Space Warrior you can check out her books on Amazon and I hope she's ok if I post this link to it but here's the link to it.

https://www.amazon.com/Lost-Space-Warrior-2-ebook/dp/B078HL7FRW/ref=pd_sim_351_1/142-6160595-6010752?_encoding=UTF8&pd_rd_i=B078HL7FRW&pd_rd_r=42a06d65-7cdc-11e9-97ac-510cb5876d74&pd_rd_w=TbC71&pd_rd_wg=Ezhaj&pf_rd_p=90485860-83e9-4fd9-b838-b28a9b7fda30&pf_rd_r=A5Q0HW14EHTQTB2X2QSW&psc=1&refRID=A5Q0HW14EHTQTB2X2QSW

It is a good story, very clean, kids adults will love it.

Anyway, the reason I was talking about this is that as I was looking at her work I was so happy for her and hope that one day that will be me. Which I am in the process of it it's just hard for I am dealing with keeping the house clean, taking care of two of my wonderful kids who I love dearly, and working a job. Yes I am doing Door Dash, if you don't know what that is look it up, it's a driver dilievery to any restaurant and the pay is ok, it's more like a side job whenever you can do it, you can schedule whenever you can and can quit whenever you can, super nice but doesn't pay the bills. So I have applied a lot of jobs and hoping I can have a part-time job. I don't want too but we are desperate, my hubby is working but it isn't enough. Money is the most stressful thing ever.

But I do hope that one day my job will only be working on my books, and can make income out of it. Along with my Youtube Channel, I hear you can make dough out of it but only if you get views and such...I haven't made the dough yet. You can check out my Youtube channel here.
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfOcx7d6JnRsy1G8ucBVAgg?view_as=subscriber

I have been working on Sweet and Sour and I was only planning to make it a short book like possibly only two books of it and it's taking me forever to finish the first book. My friend has managed to publish four books in about two years and I have been working on the first book for over a year.
But it wasn't all my fault, I had to learn how to use a tablet that my friend got me, and use the software program for it, which I use Medibang. It's free I totally recommend it.

It took me a while to learn it and then once I in the groove I had a baby, I was dealing with Postpartum depression, (which is one of the horrible things I have ever dealt with), my laptop died (which was so tragic), and then I had knee surgery. So much going on and it's hard to do it with kids needing your attention but I do try to make time for it cause I want to finish it.

I love making this book, I want to do it with all of my books, Flower in the Dust, Gaining Altitude, Moon Princess,  and ten more. I am not sure which one to work on next or now for I do have a thing where I do more than one book for I need a variety, do one for a while and then do another and then go back it helps for I do get bored staying on one book.

Why No means No

I have been so down lately, I might get really strictly. Really strict. For I am running out of options, I didn't want to get into people faces but I feel like that's the only way, the only way to get more subscribers on YouTube. Everyone else is doing it so maybe I have to do it to get people attention, you think that will work?

I made a recent video about NO means No and the reason I made it cause I remember the awkward moments when someone asked me if I wanted gum and I said no and she asked why not? And I hate to make an excuse why I don't want it so I said "I'm on a diet," and that made no sense what so ever.

Doesn't it bug you too though? Like, don't you wish they didn't ask you why afterward so now you have to explain why you didn't want it or explain why you don't want to hang with that person or explain why of something that shouldn't be that important. 

They are based on true events so none of it is made up, the time I talk about my friend we call her Betha that was getting hit by a nerd was very annoying and embarrassing, it was like talking to a seller guy trying to sell you soap. That has happened to me also, I was in the mall and got caught by a guy that was selling a certain type of soap product that is supposedly good, I was in his clutches, he would not let me go. I was getting more angry with this guy the more I was still with him, I tried every nice excuse why I couldn't buy it and why I had to go, he would not stop. I finally decided to get the cheapest thing there which was a bar of soap for ten dollars. Ten dollars. And I decided to get it as a gift for my sister and when I was telling him the reason I am getting it he did not care, he just kept saying how great the product is for me and how I should take care of myself and blah blah blah. I was so upset, I was at the other side of the mall crying to another sells person and she knew who I was talking about.

She comforts me and told me how he made her spend 300 dollars for soap. 300!! I felt so sick I wanted to throw my bar of soap at this guy, he did not make me feel good about my purchase. However, this sells person was super nice and the fact for comforted me I did buy a dress...I mean she did give me a discount and was super sweet and made me feel better for myself.

....Or did I buy a dress? I remember her offering a discount but I don't know if I got the dress or not...

My brain has not been the same since I got pregnant with my first child.  

 Love being a mom.

But there are hard times.

So if you ever visit me on Instagram or Facebook just know I might be personally telling you to subscribe to me on Youtube for I do not only poor animation I do music videos tutorials and if you have any suggestions I am open to it.

So I don't know when the last time I talked about my comics and if you haven't seen them on Instagram or Facebook where you can check them out. I picked out three of my favorites so far.

This one makes me laugh for it is so simple and so clever, at least I think so, I've been watching a lot of cooking shows but I don't think I will ever do it or make dinner...I don't like to cook, I am ok baking and pouring a bowl of cereal but that's it. It doesn't mean I can't I have made meals just not often, my hubby does all that.

This is me, ALL ME. I personally hate reading...the only thing I really read is the scriptures and manga books, but let's be honest manga is mainly pictures and that's why I like reading them. The only book I actually have read and have enjoyed it is the Twilight series, Hunger Games series, and the Matched series, I recommend to anyone even Pendragon, I have only read up to three books out of ...like 10 books but they are really good books. I tried reading the Harry Potter series and I just couldn't get myself to read it.

It's been raining and I keep thinking about this song and feel like it's not entirely a good song. For the rain can be good, especially for hot summers.

I have many more and more to come I just need to sit down and do it, along with finishing Sweet and Sour it feels like it's taking forever to finish Sweet and Sour, here are a little glimpse. I know this blog is long I really need to do more of this blog thing more often. I know I don't have many great things to say and I don't have a lot of people reading it but it does help me with stress like today I am dealing with crap and this seems to help me distract it.

Money Makes the World go Round

I am struggling with money, isn't everyone? Money is literally the term of the Money Makes the World Go Round, for without it you are nothing, literally. 

I wish school taught me how to be an adult, like taxes, getting insurances for your car, start working at the age of 10 to gain income to be adult, stuff like that. I am so stressed on how much debt I am in with stuff and don't have enough to pay it. Don't you? 

I didn't do this blog to get money, (I heard you can and I don't know how and it's not working so far) I did this blog to be stress-free, tell my story on my projects I'm doing while being a mom. I don't like sharing about my family for I don't want a creep looking at them and make a sick joke or what not, (for I hear way too many stories about that kind of stuff.) 

I have been thinking of making Sweet and Sour all in one book for that's how short it is, but at the same time I am so close finishing chapter four and I'll probably do chapter five and that will be the end of it for the end of chapter five is a very bad cliff hanger and that's the best kinds of endings of a book.

I did another video called This is Pitch! I have been thinking about if I was ever in a show like the Voice I think I'll jump scare myself if they press that button. I thought that would be a great idea to do and asked my sisters for the idea to record them and add them as well. Nonny-who was Karli singing voice- has the best voice, and I'm not just saying that cause she is my sister no she has an amazing voice, she has worked on it for years and I find it amazing. And the song she sang was made up and super hilarious. 

The song I sang was also an original called Welcome, I did it with my guitar Waldo and it doesn't sound too bad but I don't consider myself a great singer.

Tutu-who was Kynsie- just sang a simple nursery rhyme that we all know, Mary had a Little Lamp. 

I didn't know if I was doing something copyright for I stealing the pictures online from the Voice show for this idea was base on the Voice, so I changed a few things and called it Singing Time but then changed it to Pitch, if you look closely to the background I still have the title SingingTime back there I didn't change it to Pitch for it was going to be too much work when I'm already so tired.

Hair short long and meduim

I am on Pinterest as Flanngy and I have posted some stuff on there and I even did this hair tutorial.

Ok, not really a tutorial just some hair examples of how to do when it's long short medium and when it's curly straight and wavy.

You got it? Just some examples of how to do some hairstyles.

Now the big question is about this book called Gaining Altitude. It's about three sisters that are triplets and their hairstyle is long short and medium. Hehe. This story is great, it has an adventure, fantasy creatures, and flying ships. And many more, I have gotten so far in it in pencil and just don't know if I really want to re-due it into my laptop. I can try just doing touch up for I don't know if I want to redraw this story for I have gone so far in it and it looks good as it is...maybe.

This is me reading some of the stories and as you can see it doesn't look bad as in art wise but I just conflicted what to do. It's one of my favorite stories and it's going to be one of those long stories that probably will go until the 20 volume or something it is a long story.

Big Fat Bruise

I have written this song while I was on my mission with a good friend of mine that was my mission companion at the time. We wanted to make a song that when you are hurt or dealing with something like a trial focusing on God will help the pain to go away.

I don't like using the word God for written lyrics but the idea was to focus on God.

Here are the lyrics:

Chorus:
So if you have a big fat bruise
just smile.
Be careful how you face
your trail
we often fall and crash
it all depends on how
we see the glass

first verse:
I've seen those who would
just give up and walk away
and get into their old ways
many tears have been shed
and may crawl, to an unknown
den lost forever in misery.

Second verse:
I've seen those who almost
lost their faith, pain, and sorrows
can't be explained but in the
hardest they can find peace
and can sleep all thru the
night, for the blessing they
receive is bright

Last Verse:
This life is your past or fail
so take control and set sail
the seas and waves may overpower you
but with your perspective
you can do
win this fight
the sun in sight
endure to the end
you cannot bend

This is one of my favorite songs I have done for it flows so good and it rhymes most of the time so it feels good to listen. We work really hard to find rhymes and make it sound ok like it makes sense of what we are trying to say.

We didn't finish it together for I left to a different area on my mission and we didn't get to see each other since. So I manage to finish it and already had a piano tune to it for I had this tune for before my mission start, I just didn't know if I should make it into a song with lyrics, well after we wrote the song I put it together and it turns out great.

Life is hard and I feel like I experience some heavy storms lately, like the postpartum depression for example that was really hard to overcome. Along with my knee surgery that was really hard and it still is for I can't run walk up and down the stairs, I originally am a slow walker and now I'm even slower and I know if I'll ever be fast.

I need to exercise, well I try but I need a bike that's what I need.

I'm still working on Sweet and Sour on page 125, just need at least 75 more to go. Sweet and Sour has a good message about which path to choose and the chooses we make leads to our future. I hope you like the song I have done and maybe I will do more. Don't forget to check out my other videos and my new Instagram account, my other one died it wouldn't work anymore so I made a new account with the name of kproductions3.0_flanngy check it out.

I need your Feedback

OK if you have been wondering why it's been so long since the last post I'll tell ya, I was dealing with a lot of stress, not about my book, not about my videos, I couldn't do them for a while for we were moving. It was very sudden and a miracle we were able to pack everything and move in three days. But once we were moved unpacking took a while, it was a very stressful thing for me, unpacking organizing and trying to watch my kids as well that was tough. My toddler kept getting into stuff like my makeup and food so the place was never clean until TODAY. Today my hubby took the kids out and the whole time he was gone with the kids I was cleaning.

There still needs some unpacking to be done but for now, I have all the essentials my sketchbooks, my notebooks, my laptop Aqua Cloud, my tablet Stirling, clothes, food, and toys. It's so nice to have a clean house.

Now that the house is clean and organize the best it can right now I am going to focus on my book and videos. I miss doing them, I feel like an empty cup that needs to fill with doing work.

But I do have a question.

I want to re-due my first ever finished comic called Flower in the Dust, it's in sketchbooks 14 of them and it took me five years to do them. I want to use my nifty computer technology to make them look good. But I have another story that I have gotten far in it, I got to sketchbook 11 on it, it's called Gaining Altitude and the art in it is not bad but it is in pencil. Do you think I should re-due it or keep it as it is and just fix a few things on it?

It's a way good story but it needs to be finished it is going to be one of those great adventures that might take 20 more sketchbooks to finished. Ok, maybe ten more the point is it is a great story.

Now I know you don't know the story so maybe you don't understand or care what I do but I would like feedback. Please reply your answer I would like feedback. I'll share the first chapter or book here.

Ok so I only read a few pages in this book, but it is a good book, along with many others, I just don't know if I should try to re-due it for it looks good as in pencil but probably when it's printed in an actual book if I do get that far, so please give me your input.