Working on Other Books

Sweet and Sour book one is so close being done, I've been really pushing to get it done since it only has a few more pages left and maybe as a little extra in the end like an Author note and sketches...and such. 

It has taken me two years for this book and it might take me another two years to finish the next one since this series is only going to be two books...is that bad? Will that really be a problem? I only meant for this story to be short for a reason and that reason is a practice run,  for I didn't know how to use my tablet when I got it, I only did it on sketchbooks and I'm happy for the tablet but didn't know anything about it or the program I was told I could use, and I was very excited now to start on other stories like Flower In the Dust, Gaining Altitude, Moon Princess and more. 

I have been starting on other stories while I was doing this one for I can't focus on one. I know while growing up my sisters always told me to focus on one book, but I couldn't! I just start on another story while still working on the main one. And it helps me breathe, when I was trying to do Sweet and Sour for almost a year I couldn't focus anymore on it, I tried but ended up doing other stuff. So I started on another story by my friend that has accomplished publishing books but has asked me to do a story for her while we were still in high school for she thinks I draw better...she is good too go check out her books you can find them on Amazon. Link here.

https://www.amazon.com/Lost-Space-Warrior-Sara-Swearingen/dp/1456628437/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=the+lost+space+warrior+manga&qid=1573934083&sr=8-1

When I started on her book I felt relief, even though now I have to worry about two stories my main focus is still on Sweet and Sour, my friend's book is just a nice backup.

The story is good, I like the characters, but do feel like the plot needs a bit of work but it is kid-friendly and I'm sure everyone can enjoy it for it has romance, adventure, pirates, demons, transformation, and space.

And I have been naughty, after doing some of this story I couldn't help myself but get into more stories for I feel more confident now to do it on my nice tablet and program Medibang. I think Medibang is a great source for manga books for it has things you need for it. 

I have started Moon Princess, Moon Princess will not be Kid-friendly only because there were be blood. Just that, I don't do swear words or sex but this book will be full of fighting violence and blood, and I don't think I want my kids reading them until their older. But this book is like a dark precious sacred one to me, it has a romance story that is so good it makes my chest burn in excitement and it's just really good.

My sister wrote it mainly but I have to add and re-arrange some things. But this would be a five stars dinner course, (kiss my fingers good). It is a dark tale about a soldier that has a dark past and thinks and sees nothing but darkness and blood. He is caring but he always has a serious look, not until a beautiful princess that shines like moonlight in his dark soul brought them together. AH! It's so good! It has a really, really bad cliffhanger that I will not say for I hope you will read it and just eat it.

And just recently while Sweet and Sour have only a few pages left I have started the only book I have ever finished in Sketchbook form (took me four years to finish it) Flower In the Dust. This is a sweet story and it does have a little bit tale like Sleepy Beauty but it has more to it, we never meant it to be like sleepy beauty it just kind of happened. There is a princess but she is also a wizard, there is a handsome man that you see him as a pig at first, (Whoa what??) Yeah, this book has magic, demons, spirit animals, romance, a little fighting but won't be as bad as Moon Princess. It will be a great book for any kid. 

Aw...this picture is so sweet, don't you think? I have tweaked this story as well, just a little, I haven't taken out the plot too much just added more details and trying to make more sense on each character and their personality. My high school friends have read this book, I had so many people that I kind of knew in my classmates ask to read this book for they were intrigued by it. It has fourteen sketchbooks but I believe if my calculation is correct his might only be a seven to ten book series.

I know I probably did too much on my plate, but once Sweet and Sour book one is done I will get into two and it will be my main story still to try to finish. Sweet and Sour is a fun book, I love how I develope this story from way back then, I'm glad how it made it now it is a more clever and great message in the end.

What the Heck Life, Stop Being so Hard!

I have written another song called Meadow Lark. The reason for this name is because meadowlarks is a favorite bird in my family, it has something that we love since we lived in a desert we would always get to hear them every summer morning and we would love that. 

As I was writing this song I was trying to do my rhyming skills (which isn't the best) and dark and lark hymns so...I put meadowlark after dark and I decided that the meadowlark represents my savior lord and king. For those that are religious like me, it can also represent someone special to you that may have helped you out of the dark for I know that dark place...it may not be the same dark place as you but for it was dark, confused, depressed, and conflicted with everything. 

But I think everyone either has been there or will eventually, for I never understood depression until I had postpartum depression, which felt like I was in a hole and couldn't get myself out, it also felt like I had a dragon that's blowing fire all the time. I was angry and was just pushing everyone away, yelling and destroying everything. 

I just had an add experience about life, like the meaning of life, what's my purpose here, why are we here that kind of thing and I'm sure you have thought about that too and I had the answers in the scriptures but for some reason I still questioned it and just couldn't get out of it. 

I was at work and was feeling pretty good and then the lyrics came to me, life is so great that I'm happy to be alive, life is so depressing that I want to die...for I was in the middle. I didn't want to die but it was hard to be alive do you know what I mean? 

I have suffered someone that committed suicide and I remember how I felt right away, I was in denial at first but when I saw her lifeless I was in shock, felt numb, and kept telling myself that I wish I could of having done more for her for she was suffering and have made many attempts to kill herself before. What I saw more is how angry I was at her, for I felt like she was being so selfish not thinking how this would affect her mom and her family, I saw nothing but grief on them and couldn't understand why she would hurt them like that. But I have gotten over it and understand that life is just too hard to keep going, but to leave and have your family suffer like they did I couldn't do that for my family, I just couldn't that would probably make me feel like I was in suffering (like Hell) in heaven, I wouldn't enjoy peace, I would suffer. 

So yeah in this video I sing the song Meadow Lark and I hope it will uplift you as it did for me. Finding the peaceful Meadowlark that will guide us out of the dark. (Go towards the end of the video, the beginning part just me talking about how I'm almost done with this book) which I am, I am so close getting my first book of Sweet and Sour done! It's taking me two years to do...wow.

Meadow Lark

chorus:

Life is so great that I'm happy to be alive.

Life is so depressing that I want to die.

To cry then die.

1 verse

Moments of learning is so stressing

Sometimes I wonder if it's worth of living

do you know what I mean? 

Who am I supposed to be?

2 verse

The rich and the poor are always going to be beggers

unless we find a way to help each other

singing together in harmony

getting that happiness we need

3 verse

fear God but don't fear God

Have faith do not faint

Love me not bee stings

Eat cheesecake lose that weight

I know your pain

it is not lame

I've been in that dark

Until my Meadowlark

shown me the way

last chorus:

Life is so great that I am happy to be alive

but life can be so depressing it's ok to cry

Sometimes the only thing you can do is breath

Sometimes it can be too painful to breath

just breath just breath

This is a loving memory of someone that was loved by many is now in heaven probably being a missionary to many.

Background in a Comic page

Hey, people in Poisea, I made a video about how to do background on comics, there are many ways to do background for comics but you need to find the right one. 

When I started I struggled with figuring out how to do the background. I wasn't really sure how I would do one, but now I feel more confident now too. Each background needs to be apart of the picture, either be like a scene where they are like a playground, a bedroom, bathroom, but in the manga, they do just do backgrounds on how the person feels like flowers, sparkles, running lines, and such. 

The picture I did is about a girl who sees another girl and was wondering if she was a certain someone who she hasn't seen in a long time. For in the story she is originally her friend but died in a car wreck and has been a few years since. So the dead girl is dead but had to be on earth as an Immortal angel to help find her sister's memories. 

Yeah, that probably made no sense, but don't want to explain the story too much I am so close getting this done! But you can start reading it, even though it hasn't be edited you can read it, it's here on my blog. 

https://flanngyslastdraw.blogspot.com/2018/10/first-unedited-chapter-of-sweet-and-sour.html

https://flanngyslastdraw.blogspot.com/2018/10/first-unedited-chapter-of-sweet-and-sour.html

https://flanngyslastdraw.blogspot.com/2019/05/i-want-to-work-on-more-stories.html

I am working on chapter five and it's so close to finishing it. Once it's done then the whole book would be done and I can try to get it to be edited and try to find a publisher. 

Does anyone know where I can publish? For a cheap or no price? I have made an account for creative space that I know of someone showing it to me to be a self-publishing website. 

Here is some of my comic and focus on the background I did, I would like to do that when I read manga, focusing on the background on each picture and how inspiring it is for me.

Scary Story's

So I know this is late but for Halloween, I did a video about my true story about some of my scary moments that turn out to be hilarious. Throughout October I tried to get people to watch it, I post it so many times and send it to messages to watch it but for some reason, it only got 19 views. Hmm...That's disappointing considering I have over a hundred friends on Facebook and Instagram and only 19 of them saw this video.

Sure this video doesn't have the best animation in it but the stories are hilarious. It could happen to anybody. The first story is about someone just going to the bathroom and turning on the wrong switch, I mean doesn't that ever happen to you and doesn't it scare you? For it does for me. 

The second video is about me and my sister when we were kids playing at a playground and while playing on a tube slide my sister slipped and I got her hand but man was she heavy, I don't know how they do it in movies for I was just less than 40 pound kid holding onto may be less than 30 pound kid and couldn't hold her, I couldn't bring her up to safety, and it literally felt like if I let her go she will fall and die. We were crying and screaming at each other. Once she slipped out of my hands I thought the worst would happen but then she just landed on the bottom of the slide and we felt stupid. We laughed big time but at the moment was really scary.

The last story is about a trip to Hawaii, we were camping on a volcano (and I don't like camping, like at all) and during the night it started to rain and I remember how I left my notebook out there with my comic ideas in it and such so I decided to go out there. I was half asleep when I went out here and when I got my notebook I heard this noise that was loud and unfamiliar. I freaked out, wide awake thinking it's a bear. I tried to open the tent had a hard time finding the zipper, once it was open I swoosh in yelling there's a bear and my sisters looked at me stupidly saying how there are no bears in Hawaii.  I was relieved to hear that but what did I hear then? Turn out to be a dog at the next campers, that was so dumb.

I got one comment about someone else scary story and I was hoping for more, so please go check out this video and tell me your scary story I would love to hear it. I enjoyed Halloween got to celebrate it with my kids, it was so much fun going trick or treating with them, I can never be too old to go trick or treating, I don't so much like get candy only chocolate. 

I was dressed up as a pumpkin, I tried my Zelda outfit that I did for Fan-x, didn't get the attention that I would like like I did from Fan-X so I did my pumpkin. 

Working on my book still, getting so close on finishing it, I am also working on some videos, I know I still haven't gotten a lot of viewers on my channel but I am still making videos!

Is it Just me? Or don't you think so too

Life sucks but it also can be great! I just wrote a song about that, for I struggle, like maybe everyone faces life can be so hard to deal with that you just want to cry cry cry and just cry... Or maybe that's just me, I get stressed out and sometimes I stress to the point where I just want to lay down and cry until I die.

That sounds dark but that's how it feels like. I don't die, I don't try to kill myself or anything like that, I just get into that thought that I'm done with living. But what gets me out of it is my kids. Every time my kids get me thru it and help me to be myself again. (Maybe I should go see a doctor about this).

Anyways so yeah life sucks but I am still alive and breathing, I want to record the new song I did called Meadow Lark for that's what it talks about, how life is so depressing but it can also be great and happy and how we need to keep living. The meaning of life is so deep, I don't understand it myself what's the purpose of us being here and I will soon but right now I am so close, SO CLOSE, finishing my first book of Sweet And Sour. 

I have less than twenty pages to do, less than twenty! I am so excited about it but still taking me forever to get done. It has taken me two years to do this book, and some of the reasons are that last year my laptop stopped working so I had to wait until I got a new one which took a while to get for I'm not rich. If I was rich I would buy a nice computer, with a camera thing so I can record myself while drawing or do my "Try Not to Laugh" challenges, they are fun to do, and have a recording machine with a microphone and everything to do my animations and songs. If I was rich I would love to buy a house. I am so done living in a basement apt but am happy to have what I have instead of living on the streets. 

Sometimes I kind of want to sell a lot of our things and just live in an RV until we can afford a place. Would that be so bad?

So yeah anyways, Sweet and Sour is almost done, I have started three other stories already, I've gotten far on one particular book that  the story is by my friend I keep mentioning Sara, she is the one that has already published some of her books, she asked me to do a story for her way before she did her own and I have started to draw it again on my tablet to give it a better look. I didn't realize that I've already gotten so far on it. 

I've started Moon Princess, a romantic story that my heart just burst for.

And lastly, I am doing my first story I have ever finished in a Sketch Book form, have 14 sketchbooks of it and took me four years to do. Now that I am doing it on a tablet would it take me eight years since doing this first book it's taking me two years to do and I don't know why it takes me so long, does it take long for anybody else or is it just me?

So if you guys know Markipliar on Youtube, he made this incredible video called A Heist With Markipliar, I would very much recommend watching it and keep watching it until every single ending. Yes, there's more than one end, this is a genius idea for a video I don't know if Markipliar came up with it or someone else but whoever did it I want to applaud to you for you sir or ma'am are geniuses. Markipliar is my favorite Youtuber, he plays horror games mainly and I watch him every night to help me fall asleep. Yes to help me fall asleep, watching horror games. He does swear but it doesn't bug me like someone else would for he is so enjoyable to watch that I don't care, I love his videos. If I'm not watching Markipliar I usually then watch Denis Daily, he does mainly Roblox games which did slightly annoy me for a time but now I think it's fine he is a fun guy to watch also.

Who do you like to watch on Youtube? I am on youtube called K Productions 3.0,  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfOcx7d6JnRsy1G8ucBVAgg?view_as=subscriber I have done some animations and some other videos go check it out and don't forget to subscribe and please tell me how to improve my channel I am open for advice.

Ok, so before I end this post I want to tell you a story that is true and made me do this comic. One day I was waiting for my hubby to come to get me from my brothers house and while I was waiting I see this little girl wandering around and then she finally looked at me and asked, "Have you seen a girl that looks like ten?" and my mind went blank. 'a girl that looks like ten' tells me nothing, I didn't know what a ten-year-old girl looked like, I was so stunned by her question but told her I didn't for I haven't seen anyone for a while, but it still dumbfounded me about it. I made a really funny comic about it.

Now, of course, that ending wasn't true, but I thought it would be funny to do. The girl is fine nothing really happens to her. I hope you liked it though as much as I do, I find it clever clean and of course very funny.

I'm Proud Of What I've Accomplish

Hey, so I have accomplished so much and excited to keep accomplishing. I did six weeks, yes six weeks of doing the fan art, two times I didn't think I could do it cause I was so tired overstressed and just couldn't bring myself to do it. But I did, I just did my last fan art which is Sia but hasn't posted it yet still working on the video, but I did do the picture and going to post it in this post. 

Week four I did the evil queen when I started watching Once Upon A Time I couldn't stop. The show was so good, I am so happy that they ended it the way it did for it need to be that (Spoiler Alert) the Evil Queen can have a happily ever after by being the good queen. Her story is sad but she also kept holding onto the past and needed to let go, but she does eventually, it ended so well. Love all the plots and turns and the characters.

I did struggle to get this picture for I was having a hard time functioning and so when I usually did my pictures on monday I didn't do this one until Friday, and I manage to edit the video and post it on Saturday. I don't get too many views watching my speed draw videos but it's still something I like to accomplish. I don't know I like watching others do speed draw paints it always soothes me and helps me what to improve in my painting skills. I don't know maybe it's just me. 

Spirited Away I did for week five was also a hard one for me to do, for I was still struggling with my own issues and had no heart to draw at that time. But I did, and I picked Spirited Away cause this story is so intriguing, about a girl that was afraid of everything but in the end she isn't afraid anymore, she manages to overcome her trial which is so inspiring. I love all the characters and the town.

I wasn't sure how long I wanted to do this fan art project, I told myself I would it for six weeks, so six pictures. I don't know if I'll stop but I know it was a struggle to do the last bit. For Siavideo I want to do something different, I want to record myself singing on my favorite songs by her, but you still get to see how I drew it.  I don't know if I can but want to try. 

Week One Howls Moving Castle

Week 2 Fruit Basket

Week 3 Nightmare Before Christmas  

Week Four Evil Queen

Week Five Spirited Away 

Week Six Sia 

I'm so close finishing Sweet and Sour, I'm on page 175 and decided to try to do two pages a day, (SHOCK) yes, I struggle with one page a day but I have to get this book done, cause once I do I have to get it to edit and that will take a while as well and then I'll publish it. I don't know how to publish but I am going to try on this website that I've heard about, it's a self-publishing company and I know someone that does her books through it so I don't know I'm going to try. 

If anyone knows anyone that's a publisher that would be great too let me know! This book has taken me two years, >_<. 

Nightmare before Christmas Fan Art

Week 3 Nightmare before Christmas, I did three pictures because it was so easy to do this one. I have always had a crush on Jack Skeleton, is that weird? I have a thing for skeletons because of him and I don't know why that is. I was never allowed to watch that movie as a kid cause my mom finds it too dark about Santa being kidnapped and I was afraid of the boogie man and to this day I still hate the part of Jack Skeleton and Boogieman fight each other. I find that part so freaky and if the boogie man was made out of bugs why was he even like created? I don't get it.

I first did Jack Skeleton face and in the middle of it I wanted to put something else in it besides just his face and I know that cool twirly hill is one of the things in the show that represents it so I put it in one of his eyes, I didn't think it would turn out good but I really like it and I hope you to do.

After I did him I decided to do Sally who took a little longer and added Zero to it. And then I decided to do them together for I think they are great together but didn't want to completely start over so I compy past their faces to a new page and added their bodies to it. I know Jack is supposed to a lot taller and in the moment I didn't think about it so sorry about that. 

I don't know how long I will do this challenge, I said six weeks but it might be more or less...I don't know, but I do want to tell you that I did find a different job and after the first day I felt so great and happy, actually happy! This job is a warehouse job and I price things and for some reason, it is so much better than the last job I had, so hopefully, I won't pass out at this one.