I want to work on More Stories

I am a religious person, I believe in God the father and his son Jesus Christ, I have grown up in my church and on my mission, I had to figure out myself if what I was teaching was true, and I had by searching for myself and asking God himself and he has given me the answer that what I was teaching was true and where I belong is true and I was very happy about it.

I was studying the other day about Viture, and I haven't had a good study in a long time so I was so into it and decided to draw it. Use my skills to the test I didn't know how I was going to but I was determined to do it.

The quote is by me for that's how I understand virtue, it is something pure and keep the mind clean. For I  am not perfect growing up I may have been tempted and it was very hard to stop thinking it. But I know that the more I study and prayed and song good songs it got easier to stop thinking it, it was like a drug at first but it slowly stopped and now I feel free from it. I am sure this will work for anyone that is addicted or get tempted. 

But now I am conflicted, I want to work on another story for that's what I did before with all my lovely sketchbooks, I would work on four different stories at once and it helped. A lot of people would tell me that's not the right way to do it for I need to focus on one, but I'm sorry I like working on other books for it helps me. Doing one then go to a different one and then I feel better getting back to the first one  I was doing. I don't know it really helps me, I have been working on Sweet and Sour I am to the point where I just need a break, even though I haven't finished it I am still planning on it I just need to work on something else. I just don't know which one to do.

Gaining Altitude is one of my favorite adventure story that my sisters and I have come up with. It has full of adventure, fantasy characters, probably will be the longest story I'll ever do. I haven't finished it but the other day I was reading it and it made me want to so bad to finish it. 

Flower in the Dust is a story about a farm girl that found out she is Princess from a wizard world and demons are after her cause apparently she is the most powerful wizard on her magical land called Saphairy, it is a good story, has some great characters and I have finished this story, took me five years and it was a great accomplish. I would like to work on it again to make it look better but I would like the change a few things to make the reader more interested in it.

Moon Princess is a dark precious one, it is so well done and it's by my sister and I have tweaked it a little and like I said it's my dark precious one, it's not for kids, sorry kids but this one has to be gory for there is a war so there are blood and intense fights. But has an amazing romance story in it. 

Chapter three is all about how good people can be a slightly bad, not necessarily evil or devils I just name the chapter that for the whole heaven you either be a Savior or a Devil, so, in this case, yes these angels can do some bad but for good reason.

Joy has the longest hair in this story and I have to say I really enjoy it, I like doing her hair.

Their plan to find the crystals is going great, I am close where they found them all. I haven't done like how they found them all the time kind of thing for my focus is when they do find them all something happens when Joy gets her memory back. This is supposed to be a short story if they ever do like an animation out of it they can make it longer by doing an episode for each crystal found.

We need the Good and the Bad

I am in the process making the book Sweet and Sour...IT'S TAKING FOREVER! I mean what's the average time of making a book? My friend Beth is making books in four to six months and manage to do it in that time limit! I have been working on this book for over a year and I have explained the last post why it's been taking a long time. But the point is I just did a page today and I am like "Wow that took forever to do" I mean my goal to make a page a day but I think I need to step it up or something for I am taking forever.

But maybe it's not a bad thing for as long I am doing a page a day that's good enough, right?

I don't know I just wish it's done, I know it will eventually just takes forever.

 Izumi has an ex-girlfriend that hasn't gotten over the breakup. Every story needs drama and Akira really creates that, when she discovered about Joy hanging out with Izumi she does not like that. She wants to know who she is and why she is and wants her away from Izumi. Izumi is everything to her even though they aren't together she is crazy about her.

 As crazy as Kisa (Joy) is there are moments when Izumi actually likes her when she's asleep she is calm and very pretty to look at, even though she is acting like a toddler and drives Izumi crazy he secretly likes her.

Susie sees that she sees that Izumi has a thing for Joy and she thinks it will heal him from his past. 

This story is going to be short but it is going to be sweet and have a lot to learn about life. Yes, I have made up on how the afterlife is going to be like and I know nothing about it is true but the idea of reasons to have  Saviors and Devils influences mortal humans has a big purpose. We need oppositions in life for we need to know and understand the bad to know and understand the good. Very religious here sorry but I hope you know that I am religious. but whether you are or not we need good and the bad.

Let's explain a dark Tale

With my last post, I was remembering why I want this, it's something I would love to do as a job and would love one day to get a call saying that I am invited to an art center or whatever singing books or my arts, and just get a little recognized and may able to perform my songs and just make everyone laugh and have a good time. That seems really fun to me but I don't know if I ever get there for first I need to finish my book Sweet and Sour.


It is something I wanted since 14, I was confused who I was and what I wanted to do at age 20-23, I was not drawing for I was not sure why I was. I was doing Gaining Altitude and couldn't bring myself to draw, nor singing or playing the piano I was just confused and didn't know if I did do this I won't go anywhere. But like I have said before my friend Beth has changed everything when she has managed to publish her first book, it did give me hope but I didn't know what to do about it, didn't know who to talk to or how to start. What I wanted was a nice drawing tablet and I didn't get that till years later.

I was so excited when my friend Beth gave me my tablet and it's working and hasn't stopped working. My laptop did and money is so tight that I manage to get one with luck but still, money is tight and it is stressing me out.

This here is a big give away about Izumi past and basics of his background. I have explained about his story in a different post. https://flanngyslastdraw.blogspot.com/2018/09/oh-my-goodness-its-been-while-and-its.html but in the story, Susie tells the tale about him for it was one of her projects she had to do as his savior (AKA Angel).

It is a tragic story, so dark, I love how I did the background in that and Susie hair came out perfect. Susie's hair is a little difficult, it's supposed to be curly hair but sometimes I feel like I keep doing it wrong or something.

I also wanted to show how close Susie and Lark are, Lark trusts Susie more than anyone and she relies on Susie for she knows Susie is the one that can do it.

Angels have the power, in the angel world there are rules and degrees, once you become a Savior you get to go thru the mortal or immortal door and once you do you get a bracelet that is their communicators, if they went thru the mortal door they can use their bracelets to become immortal for a while, being immortal you have your wings and halo and be unseen to the human eyes. Mortal is when you don't have your wings or halo and you are seen by humans and can get hurt. These bracelets let them have use of heaven powers, they can use it to have the things they need like furniture for their apartment, money to have the apartment. It can help them find crystals but only if they are near, it will vibrate if they are like five feet away from it. 

Susie and Lark are completely different kind of peoples, Susie is more happy and energetic, while Lark is more not. And yet Lark loves being around Susie more than anyone...even her twin sister Joy.

Everyone in this story has a Dark Tale, Izumi has one for his eye resembles it, Destiny the main villain especially has one, Drake, Imogen, Joy, Lark, Wyatt, and even Susie. Sure Chiaki has one along with Bartholomew but not as dark as the others.

Drake had a terrible past of abuse and neglect. 

Chiaki had father issues and couldn't bring children to the world but loves his wife dearly.

Susie had to raise her brother and sisters at the age of 6 and the youngest sibling was just a newborn, her parents never home so to survive she got herself and her siblings in a foster home. 

Imogen got kidnapped and was abused starving to death and been raped multiple times in a hole in the ground.

Wyatt got Leukemia died in late teens but was very neglected, no one supported him.

Destiny, abused, neglected, kidnapped, sex slave, and starved to death. She was literally going thru the worst of the worst.

Joy was the favorite but wanted to be friends with Lark, Lark was jealous of the attention Joy was getting so she pushed her away and hated that people never saw her as Lark, and all Joy wanted was the relationship that sisters should have with Lark.

Remembering What I'm Doing

I got the chance to go see the movie Detective Pokemon with my friends and I have to say that the show was a lot better than expected. I have watched Pokemon when I was a child but wasn't something I was into so I didn't go crazy watching it like I did with Rurouni Kenshin, Yu-gi-oh, Hamtaro, and Sailor Moon.

But I would give Detective Pokemon 5 out of 5 stars, and would most definitely watch it again.

My friend that I went to see it was my good friend Beth, I don't know if I can use her name for I haven't asked but we are going to call her Beth. She has successfully published four of her books and I have colored three of the covers for her for she claims I am much better at coloring books than she is. I was hanging out at her place before the movie and I got to see her doing her work, she uses a different software than me but she has accomplished so much in her books and is willing to do the book that I have asked her to do long time ago only because I wanted to know how that felt for I have down books for others like my sisters and for my friends. I was doing stories for others and for myself of course, but I wanted someone to do a story for me to see how that goes and I came up a short story.

It is a short story, she keeps forgetting that thinking it is a long story but it isn't, I only made it short for short reasons. She has other projects to deal with anyways so it shouldn't be a big deal, but she keeps thinking it should be a long story. But it isn't, it's a book full of ninja's and a crystal. She is planning on doing my story slowly for she is still doing her current one which is called Lost Space Warrior you can check out her books on Amazon and I hope she's ok if I post this link to it but here's the link to it.

https://www.amazon.com/Lost-Space-Warrior-2-ebook/dp/B078HL7FRW/ref=pd_sim_351_1/142-6160595-6010752?_encoding=UTF8&pd_rd_i=B078HL7FRW&pd_rd_r=42a06d65-7cdc-11e9-97ac-510cb5876d74&pd_rd_w=TbC71&pd_rd_wg=Ezhaj&pf_rd_p=90485860-83e9-4fd9-b838-b28a9b7fda30&pf_rd_r=A5Q0HW14EHTQTB2X2QSW&psc=1&refRID=A5Q0HW14EHTQTB2X2QSW

It is a good story, very clean, kids adults will love it.

Anyway, the reason I was talking about this is that as I was looking at her work I was so happy for her and hope that one day that will be me. Which I am in the process of it it's just hard for I am dealing with keeping the house clean, taking care of two of my wonderful kids who I love dearly, and working a job. Yes I am doing Door Dash, if you don't know what that is look it up, it's a driver dilievery to any restaurant and the pay is ok, it's more like a side job whenever you can do it, you can schedule whenever you can and can quit whenever you can, super nice but doesn't pay the bills. So I have applied a lot of jobs and hoping I can have a part-time job. I don't want too but we are desperate, my hubby is working but it isn't enough. Money is the most stressful thing ever.

But I do hope that one day my job will only be working on my books, and can make income out of it. Along with my Youtube Channel, I hear you can make dough out of it but only if you get views and such...I haven't made the dough yet. You can check out my Youtube channel here.
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfOcx7d6JnRsy1G8ucBVAgg?view_as=subscriber

I have been working on Sweet and Sour and I was only planning to make it a short book like possibly only two books of it and it's taking me forever to finish the first book. My friend has managed to publish four books in about two years and I have been working on the first book for over a year.
But it wasn't all my fault, I had to learn how to use a tablet that my friend got me, and use the software program for it, which I use Medibang. It's free I totally recommend it.

It took me a while to learn it and then once I in the groove I had a baby, I was dealing with Postpartum depression, (which is one of the horrible things I have ever dealt with), my laptop died (which was so tragic), and then I had knee surgery. So much going on and it's hard to do it with kids needing your attention but I do try to make time for it cause I want to finish it.

I love making this book, I want to do it with all of my books, Flower in the Dust, Gaining Altitude, Moon Princess,  and ten more. I am not sure which one to work on next or now for I do have a thing where I do more than one book for I need a variety, do one for a while and then do another and then go back it helps for I do get bored staying on one book.

Why No means No

I have been so down lately, I might get really strictly. Really strict. For I am running out of options, I didn't want to get into people faces but I feel like that's the only way, the only way to get more subscribers on YouTube. Everyone else is doing it so maybe I have to do it to get people attention, you think that will work?

I made a recent video about NO means No and the reason I made it cause I remember the awkward moments when someone asked me if I wanted gum and I said no and she asked why not? And I hate to make an excuse why I don't want it so I said "I'm on a diet," and that made no sense what so ever.

Doesn't it bug you too though? Like, don't you wish they didn't ask you why afterward so now you have to explain why you didn't want it or explain why you don't want to hang with that person or explain why of something that shouldn't be that important. 

They are based on true events so none of it is made up, the time I talk about my friend we call her Betha that was getting hit by a nerd was very annoying and embarrassing, it was like talking to a seller guy trying to sell you soap. That has happened to me also, I was in the mall and got caught by a guy that was selling a certain type of soap product that is supposedly good, I was in his clutches, he would not let me go. I was getting more angry with this guy the more I was still with him, I tried every nice excuse why I couldn't buy it and why I had to go, he would not stop. I finally decided to get the cheapest thing there which was a bar of soap for ten dollars. Ten dollars. And I decided to get it as a gift for my sister and when I was telling him the reason I am getting it he did not care, he just kept saying how great the product is for me and how I should take care of myself and blah blah blah. I was so upset, I was at the other side of the mall crying to another sells person and she knew who I was talking about.

She comforts me and told me how he made her spend 300 dollars for soap. 300!! I felt so sick I wanted to throw my bar of soap at this guy, he did not make me feel good about my purchase. However, this sells person was super nice and the fact for comforted me I did buy a dress...I mean she did give me a discount and was super sweet and made me feel better for myself.

....Or did I buy a dress? I remember her offering a discount but I don't know if I got the dress or not...

My brain has not been the same since I got pregnant with my first child.  

 Love being a mom.

But there are hard times.

So if you ever visit me on Instagram or Facebook just know I might be personally telling you to subscribe to me on Youtube for I do not only poor animation I do music videos tutorials and if you have any suggestions I am open to it.

So I don't know when the last time I talked about my comics and if you haven't seen them on Instagram or Facebook where you can check them out. I picked out three of my favorites so far.

This one makes me laugh for it is so simple and so clever, at least I think so, I've been watching a lot of cooking shows but I don't think I will ever do it or make dinner...I don't like to cook, I am ok baking and pouring a bowl of cereal but that's it. It doesn't mean I can't I have made meals just not often, my hubby does all that.

This is me, ALL ME. I personally hate reading...the only thing I really read is the scriptures and manga books, but let's be honest manga is mainly pictures and that's why I like reading them. The only book I actually have read and have enjoyed it is the Twilight series, Hunger Games series, and the Matched series, I recommend to anyone even Pendragon, I have only read up to three books out of ...like 10 books but they are really good books. I tried reading the Harry Potter series and I just couldn't get myself to read it.

It's been raining and I keep thinking about this song and feel like it's not entirely a good song. For the rain can be good, especially for hot summers.

I have many more and more to come I just need to sit down and do it, along with finishing Sweet and Sour it feels like it's taking forever to finish Sweet and Sour, here are a little glimpse. I know this blog is long I really need to do more of this blog thing more often. I know I don't have many great things to say and I don't have a lot of people reading it but it does help me with stress like today I am dealing with crap and this seems to help me distract it.