Sketchbooks VS Tablet Laptop (Time differences is so different)

When and will I finish my book? I have no idea, I don't have a due date, it's taken me more than a year to finish it. When I was drawing my books on sketchbooks, there was only like a good 70 pages or more on sketchbooks, so I would just go until the sketchbook is out of pages and claim it's done. Well, I want at least 200 pages in my book and it's more than what a sketchbook provides so it's taking me forever.

I'm on page 166 so that's really good but man I can't seem to go any faster. When I was drawing on my sketchbooks it would take me like maybe 4 months or possibly 6 months to finish. But with this new technology, I can't seem to do it that fast.

My friend who has published her books got her books out that fast and she is also doing it on her tablet. She works a job during the day and works on her books at night. I take care of my kids during the day, work on my art during their naps and bedtime. Sometimes I have to do other things like taking a nap for myself for I can't seem to sleep at night. Not because of the kids, it's me. I have a stupid hip that flares at night and won't let me sleep. I have tried everything, drinking milk to get plenty of calcium, stretching, exercising, and taking P.M. pills and nothing helps. Well, the only thing that does is heavy pain killers but pain killers sometimes keep me up too so I am not getting enough sleep at night.

I can only do so much too with drawing on my tablet. I can't do no more than one page at a time a day, for after I do one page I feel complete and my eyes and a head start to hurt so I am done. I'm sure if I do like ten a day I would be finished by now, but I don't.

And it's not just Sweet and Sour I'm doing, I am also doing my friend story, started on another story called Moon Princess, and I potentially want to start on Flower in the Dust and Gaining Altitude. Gaining Altitude is a big series, I'm on book eleven of sketchbooks of it and the story still continues. But if I still want to keep doing the 200 pages a book it might be shorter but I don't know I might not for that series.

Flower in the Dust was the first book I ever finished, a total of sketchbooks it has 14 books. But it might be shorter than 14 if I start over on it. I have started re-writing it for it needs a better beginning and I love it!! It gets me excited to do it but I want to focus on Sweet and Sour too for Sweet and Sour is a good story and it's only going to be two-book series (I'm pretty sure it's only going to be two books...unless I make it all in one book it will be way more than 200 pages.) I only started to do this book was because I didn't know how to draw comics on a tablet, so it's a practice book.  But after doing it over a year I am ready to do my other stories. Would two books be bad? I could make it into three and say I have finished this story already.

Prologue 

Chapter one

chapter two

Chapter three

Chapter four

It will only have four chapters if I did decide to do three books. For when I sketch it out in a sketchbook this is where it ended. The thing is the way I want it to end has a way better cliff hanger ending for book one so I might keep going till the end of chapter five. Yes, I am on the last chapter but his chapter is a lot longer than any of these chapters. I didn't realize I am dealing with the last chapter before it can finally end oh man this is killing me. 

I am also worried about if this book is any good for anyone to read? This story has good characters, it has drama, action, angels...um it is complicated for the way their heaven works is a lot different than what my religious beliefe is. I made it so different so the story can work together but it is a headache and I don't know if I explained it well enough at the beginning of the story.

I also need an editor. My grammar is horrible, I don't know if you can tell from reading my post but English is not my strong suit. I would usually have my sisters read the books and they would correct me, it was easy on a sketchbook but on a tablet? How do I fix it? Well, I know how but for others how do they fix it? I need another pair of eyes to read and fix my book, editing is hard and is something that needs to be done so any advice for that? 

Being a stay home mom is hard to take care of kids but I always feel like I have time, I have time to relax, and drawing really helps that. People always tell me "focus on your kids, not your book" and I'm like, "of course I do! they are number one thing I do, but I am also trapped inside a house with a lot of time on my hands and instead of watching TV I think drawing is a good way to go." When I was working part-time it was harder to draw for I get way too tired to draw, but sadly I might have to find a job again. I don't want too for I am afraid to pass out but I got no choice, our money is bleeding and we need to stop that bleeding so I on a job search again. I could try to go back to the job I had that's a possibility. 

I started this story with a notebook, not even a sketchbook. 

Fan Art Requests (P.S I still on a fence)

I posted a picture and said that I am willing to do requests, didn't think anyone would ask but just want to put it out there for I have done a few so far. Right after though someone did request a picture and I was so excited that worked. I didn't charge him or her anything I was just happy to do it. But next time I am wanting to charge like ten dollars for a picture and it can be anything. So far people want me to draw something very special for someone which is nice and cool, but I am willing to do pictures that are like your favorite character from a movie and etc. Just message me here on my blog, Instagram and Facebook. 

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And besides drawing for someone else I am starting the idea I have to create a picture I like from a movie, video game, a show or a book. This week I did Howls Movie Castle, a cute picture of Sophie and Howl together with Calcifire. It was fun and glad my recording was going swell. Sometimes it doesn't record. 

I have made a list to do each week and hopefully, I will keep this goal. I am also in the process of making an animation of my scary stories. They are not really scary, just at the moment, it scared me so I hope people will still watch it for it's hilarious. More than anything they could me my embarrassing stories for me, but not really I have really embarrassing moments that just made me turn red and want to hide forever.

I really improve every time I color. I am always learning about something on this program and getting so much better. I really like to color now, I never did before but now it's like my stress relief reliever. Or something like that. Anyways the point is I really like to color now, I may have already mentioned it before in my past posts but I really do mean it this time. Someone I met at Fan-X saw our posters and was like, "Oh these are like the old kinds," and my friend was like "old kinds????" but I knew what she meant. The digital art today is way advance than how I do it I knew what she meant o I explained how I am still learning for I am self-training myself and doing this for a year and a half now. She was telling me how she still loved my work and likes how the old fashion digital art is still amazing work and it's something that it still should be something. It made me happy to hear her say that, but I still want to learn how to improve. 

What I would like to do is go to Graphic School, but I just don't know if I can, I don't have the money or time to do it. But if it would help me with the skills that yeah I want too. But I am still on the fence about it. I know someone that went to graphic design school and manage to do two years in it and had to quit for reasons, but I don't think that would be an issue with me fore I got some skills and would like to improve on it no matter.

When I was working at DI they wanted to help me to go to school but after working there a bit I kept passing out and so I quit and haven't passed out since. But now I kinda wish I stayed cause they can help me with school, and I could go back just have to figure out with schedule and babysitter for I didn't before and maybe that's what makes me passed out because of the stress of working and finding a babysitter. I got no one, but know a daycare that just opened up near my house I could possibly do that but that also cost money. 

But we are in a money crises and have been for years now, when I had that job it really helped us out, either I should go back, have them give me fewer hours or do something less stressful and go to school thru them, maybe that's something I should do it seems logical right? What do you think please tell me I would like advice.

I'm So Conflicted HELP!

I am conflicted on what to do, I have been seeing adds about graphic school and what potential it can do for me improve my art and my comic books, I just been really thinking about it but don't know if I should. I just feel like this is something I really want to do, I wish I did when I was 22 for I could have started college then, my hubby was going to the college that I wanted to go for graphic class and he was doing nursing, I could have started it. But I was a chicken cause when I did try going to school at a different school that did accept me before my mission at age 19, they asked me to take the test again and when I did they asked if I can do it again for the score is so bad.

Nope, that's all I had. I kept hitting brick walls and just felt like giving up. When I was working at DI they kept asking me if there was something I wanted to do, like going to school and such, I didn't know if I never thought of trying to go to school for I failed at that. But now I wish maybe I should have told them I want graphic design. It could really help me to figure out my comics and animation and such as I know that's what I want.

I don't know why when I was 22 I didn't know what I wanted to do. I didn't know who I wanted to be, or what to do with my life. I did know that I wanted to accomplish my books, for since I was 14 I drew, I drew everywhere I went and did, school, vacation, I get so excited to draw my books and it was all I wanted to do. It stopped while I was on my mission for it wasn't a priority, I could only draw while I was writing in my journal. I had a sketchbook but the mission was so strict on not doing your hobbies for we have no time for that, and that killed me. I did enjoy my mission but after 17 months I am done with that stress, it was so strict.

When I came home I was different and try to draw again. But for some reason it was different, I had my sketchbook where ever I went but wouldn't draw in it, it soon happened that I stopped bring my sketchbook everywhere I went and actually started enjoying being around friends and family activities.

Drawing in a sketchbook.

I tried to go to school but like I said kept hitting brick walls, didn't know what I wanted to do, for I did try going for art but she told me to do generals, and generals told me to go back to art and I failed the test, so much money to earn credit it wasn't worth it. I try to draw here and there but honestly, I got too confused if I wanted to keep doing that.

I found my hubby so that distracted me for a while, but after we got married I tried to work and for some reason still wouldn't pick up my sketchbook to draw, I just didn't feel like it, still got confused if it will be a thing in the future.

Tried coloring with colored pencils, it's ok the first attempt.

Once I became a mom I got bored, time was slow and taking a baby is hard but I felt like I can do something else. I tried getting a job but didn't help the boredom for I was babysitting someone I know kids and felt like I can be doing something else. Once I got my first tablet I felt that boredom is lifted. While my kid slept I draw, it took a while to figure out how to draw on a tablet for I was using too a sketchbook, but once I got used to it my tablet stopped working. Now I probably can figure out what happened to it but at the moment I couldn't get it to fix so I was in this anger depression, for my boredom came back and it was driving me crazy.

UG! What to do with myself??

Luckily my friend got me an expensive new tablet and I was back into the business and enjoyed it. Started my book and still trying to finish it now, and now I am conflicted if I should improve it by going to school or not, just keep learning myself. Also conflicted if I should work again, cause money is something we need and I could help. But the problem is I tried that and was passing out for no reason, so I am scared to try again.  I do have an opportunity to try It Works but I don't even know if I will make money out of it.

When my laptop stopped working I tried improvising for I wanted to continue to draw comics at least, I couldn't work on my book but at least I got myself to do other things. Life is so hard, especially when I had a really bad case of postpartum depression, it was so hard to stay alive and all I wanted to do is be done with it. I didn't necessarily want to kill myself I just didn't want to live in it anymore you know what I mean?

I really tried to do art while my laptop was broken, this was an old art I did when I was like 18 and posted it on Instagram hoping to continue to get followers. I don't know how to get more followers and likes for my stuff but I don't want to stop doing it. If you guys know the trick let me know.

I have done a few requests for people and they seem to like it, so I would love to a request for you for ten dollars, I don't know if I will charge it for ten but we can talk about it if you would like one of anything, favorite show, movie, game whatever. Just message me on facebook or Instagram. 

This was a request for a friend and she uses it for her YouTube channel icon, it's one of my favorite works.

The top and bottom ones for the same person, she loved the unicorn one that she requested another picture of a fairy and an angel. If this is something that happened as a lot I will charge at least ten dollars, I then ten is a good amount wouldn't you think?

I'm Doing Tik Tok

Hey, people in Posiea!! I got really into Tik Tok, I got the app and decided to try it out, not the greatest at editing videos but it does have some great stuff. All kinds of songs you can use, effects, and more. But if you want it specific that's hard to do for there are times I want this and doesn't work unless I edit it on Imovie edit app. 

I made a buncha video already and like making them, for they are supposed to be short and to the point and can be really funny. And since I already have a thing for making videos I got lots of ideas that I never thought of before. 

The app had this cool effect where there's a shark swimming around, I found the perfect song for it, Imogen Heap Getting Scared, I'm so glad they had that song on there for I feel like it fits this scene. 

I always thought this video was so funny, I would laugh my head off each time I played and now the way I did I laugh even harder. And love the caption for it's so true. 

Those eyes I love to death when I found them I was playing around with them for a long time. I love anime eyes and so what better waste of time than having them on my eyes. When I was doing this video I thought about the fat song I found on their by Weird Al and decided to do my trick. I am fat, but my trick makes me even fatter. 

I have made so much more you can check them out on my Instagram or facebook. https://www.facebook.com/flanngypotofgold/?ref=bookmarks

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Rich being Poor

I get these moments where I feel very useless at what I do and hate how poor I feel. I know it's life, it's something we all have to figure out, but I'm just so tired of it. How does Mr. Beast do it? Do you guys know Mr. Beast? He is probably the richest guy I know or see on Youtube and Facebook, I mainly watch him on facebook, he does videos just to throw away money. I love watching the challenges that can only be done with lots of money and he loves doing it. Or at least I think he does, he loves giving money away, I have no idea if he ever like spends for himself for in his videos he just spends it on others.

I wish he would give challenges to really random people like me to get a free house or something, for right now that's all I want. I could be selfish and just be happy what I have now and I do, just there are moments where we are very tight getting rent paid and all our other bills. I wish school would teach you more about how to be an adult than other crap. And if they did they failed for I didn't learn anything on how to be adult until I became one.

Anyways I'm sure people are way poorer than me so I am grateful to at least have a basement apt, with no fridge, and no A/C. 

Anyway enough complaining my point is I would love to do what Mr. Beast is doing, give give give, for Christmas I always had a fantasy to be a secret Santa and give to families that need it. And be able to pay other meals, I am tired of them paying for mine, it can be embarrassing for my friends be like "let's get lunch!" and then I'm like I would love too but can't for I got pennies. They are willing to pay so we can hang, but still, I'm like...

I do have the greatest blessing in the world and that is my kids. They mean the world to me, more than what money can buy, and my hubby, I can use him for free for good pleasure he makes me happy. He is always trying his best to provide, I probably shouldn't have quit my job but I was on a fence and got more stressed and passing out the more I was trying to figure it out, but right now I feel like I should get a job because we are in a financial hole that keeps getting bigger, but the only way I can get  job probably has to some kind of graveyard job or I somehow have babysitter that works for free. I am happy to be home with my kids, I get to do my favorite job and that is working on my book and making videos. But it isn't going anywhere right now so I feel like I should get a job that can help but am afraid I might pass out.

Anyways so from my last post, I believe I was talking about doing a video challenge of drawing pictures I like from shows, movies, games, and books that sort of thing. I don't know how I am going to do it but going to try. I made a list and what I like and it as all sorts of different types like anime, marvel, Disney, and etc. It's not just all anime.

Speaking of Disney did you guys know about an article that claims Disney Lion King is stolen by Kimba the White Lion an anime from Japan that I have never heard of but as I got deep into it I really don't think they stole anything, for one the main white lion name Kimba was originally called Leo, when they did it in English they called him Kimba. And the story is that the white lion tries to help his fellow animals from the hunters so I feel like that's a really different story that what Lion King is all about. I'm not saying I'm right, just when I read that article I wanted to look into it and feel like it wasn't really what they claim it is.

I never watched Kimba the White Lion just looked up the info about it, so maybe I am wrong I don't know. But what I do know that I love Lion King, the plot, the animations, the characters, I haven't got to see the newest version of Lion King yet but really want too. I do have a thing for lions, lions become my favorite animal by age 17. When I die I want a pet lion name Fransico, and we will be the best of friends. 

I love cats. I would love one, but with a fish that my three-year-old got at a fair I don't think we should have one. I am ok with the fish just don't like cleaning his fish tank, I honestly didn't think it would live this long. I am sorry if I have bored you with this post, I honestly didn't know what to write about, I just wanted to write about something.

Doing New Things

Hey people in Posiea, I have been working on something that took me a while to make cause I had to be very patient with it and made sure it worked out smoothly. The problem is I did mess up, while I was editing together thinking I got all the pictures I need to make this video I missed a part. 

I asked my sisters to text me as if we were are cartoon characters, Karli as Nonny, me as Whitney and Kynsie as Tutu. We did this conversation that is really random and I don't know I feel about it but it's something very different, so I manage to turn it into a video by doing each text message at a time. As the process, I missed a few text message and I can't figure out how I did cause I wrote it down and tried following it at a time but I just somehow missed a few texts so it might be confusing but it's not terribly bad it's still funny and goes smoothly.

I don't know what to call it, so it's #Texting while on Youtube it's called "If they were texting", I don't know if that's ok but it's the best I can do...maybe.

I have also been on Tik Tok, something I am trying and I got to tell you I am having way too much fun on it, I made a few videos and that's all I want to do is make these short videos. They are short but it's to the point and so funny, I was really spectacle on it at first but it is something I like to do, making videos have been a thing for me.  I like making videos. 

Here's one of them, I think I look really good with Anime eyes, I look so pretty. I am so invested in this Tik Tok app.

So I am working on Sweet and Sour, it's a project I have been working for over a year now and before I liked to work on different stories at once so I did give in and started on my friend story she wrote and I'm drawing for her, the problem is I having with that is that I get really bad anxiety, before when it was on sketchbook she would like my drawings and it would be fine. Now for some reason, it's different on the tablet version for she is criticizing everything I do. The biggest one is detailed, she wants detail which is fine it's just not what I'm used to comparing what I do to Sweet and Sour. And now there is something wrong how I draw the characters and I don't know how to fix it so it has gotten me to the point where each time I attempt to draw on her story I get too anxious and couldn't get myself to do it. I can't breathe.

So I have started on another that I know I'll be fine in, I probably will get back to my friend story but for now, I need a break for this anxiety is killing me. Why must anxiety control our lives?

The next story I have started is called Moon Princess, I have tried selling a picture from it to Fan-x but got no luck, but this story is very precious. It is not going to be kid-friendly for violence at least, there will be blood. That's really hit, it will be clean from swearing and nudity and such but there will be gore, I am not holding that back for the man is a great soldier swordman guy so when he fights there is blood. He has a dark history and when he found the princess things started to lighten up. 

It does have a very, very, sad ending, but not to worry it won't be the last of it, there's like another book of series that shows a good ending with different characters and such, I am still figuring out the name, I am thinking The Legend of Moon Princess or something like that.

This is possibly the front cover of the story, still not sure, I mean I like it but when others saw it they thought he was a girl...not sure how possibly because the hair, but I don't know what do you think?

Watching Anime

I am trying new things lately, for example, new anime, I haven't been watching any anime for a...while, so I just checked out what's on Netflix and only manage to finish one (but I don't think it has all of the episodes for it ended terribly...) Vampire Knights.



I have some of the books, up to like 15 or something like that I had to stop buying the books for I am sorry the story plot got too slow for me. Shoot me, I got bored. When I started reading this series I was so intrigued in it, I thought it was genius, loved the idea of Vampires going to school at night and such I thought it was really creative. Maybe I need to finish the series before criticizing it for I never did finish it, but when I picked up the last book it had at the book store and saw something I didn't like, I was ok not finishing it. The Anime is following the book very good, I was enjoying seeing it in animation and enjoyed the character again like I did when I started reading the books, but it only had two seasons on Netflix and don't know if that's really all but it did end where I lost interest in the book version. All in all its a good vampire story, I love the art in the books, love the style of anime it is, I would read it again or just look at the pictures.

I tried watching Sword Art Online, and the plot was very good, to begin with, the idea of being trapped in a video game (still don't know how that's possible) is very different. Unlike Jumanji that was a really good show how they got trapped in a video game, the first movie was my favorite show as a kid so I love the second one.

This show is very intriguing, haven't finished it but got far in it, I hope it does have a good ending they will get out of the game and figure out why that happened to them for it makes no sense why they are. Love the art, style, the swords, and their environment it's pretty good, just I have a thing with girls in their underwear...I know a lot of anime tend to do that and it makes me uncomfortable, and if it does to me I don't dare share it to my hubby for he shouldn't be looking at that, (only me).

I have also watched this movie called the Silent Voice.

I don't know if there was like any series with this movie, all I know that I loved it. I did get bored in the end and had to fast forward for it was going slow but I did enjoy watching this cute friendship together and such. I am into America Sign Language so the fact the girl was deaf I was really interested in the first place, the sing language is in Japanese and I liked that a lot, so cool to use sign language I find it awesome. The animation was clean and nice, I like how it shows their personal problems like what we can face in life and the struggle it can be. I would suggest this movie to anyone, it has great messages in it.

My hubby asked me "are you really into this stuff?" besides the fact when we got married I had a whole collection of manga books, and posters, and a plush toy of Sanosuke my first boyfriend, yes I was into this stuff. I never really watched any when we got married because I was embarrassed, sometimes anime can show things that are so not ok to watch, (just when they are in the nude), like my favorite anime is Princess Tutu, have all the collections to it and it can just show off a lot and it embarrasses me to have others besides my sisters to watch it with me. (especially if it were my parents). But I do enjoy watching anime and want to continue so here I am doing it and its new to my hubby.
I answered him yes, I do like this stuff you should know I use to watch this kind of stuff all the time growing up. Sailor Moon, Rurouni Kenshin, Full Metal Alchemist, Fruit Basket, Studio Ghibli movies, Kaleido Star, Pretear, Princess Tutu, Cardcaptors, Mew Mew Power, Dragon Ball Z, Pokemon, Yu-Gi-Oh, and such. I also read them. I have a collection.

When I was at Comic-Con it really opened me up how much I love anime and how I want to continue to do so. I have written a list of what I like, movies, series, books, and games and want to paint them. Make fan art like I have already with my favorite artist Imogen Heap and my first boyfriend Sanosuke, I don't know if this will mean anything to anyone but it's something I want to do and make a thing out of it. Like I want to record myself each time I do and do like a weekly thing...I don't know does that sound dumb? I am very considering it.

I know I need to finish my book, it's taking forever, I am so slow at it, but maybe working on this project will help, or not it will probably make me slower to finish my book.

I don't want to do a big thing of showing them finding each crystal memory if you know the story, like in big shows of anime they do each episode of finding a thing they need and such, I am not going to do that, so I did time lapse and show a little bit of them finding them.

I also want summer break to be over, so they can get back to school for important stuff happen at the school, so I hope I didn't rush summer too much.

I hate drawing cars, I am terrible at it and don't like it. When all my other stories that don't have cars I will be ok with. 

Funny how short this was, this was chapter four. I didn't realize how short it was but it is, it just shows mainly what needs to be to end summer and the next chapter is a bit longer. I am on page 163, and hope to end on 200 or at least to the part where I want it to be for it will be a terrible cliffhanger. And cliffhangers are good for readers, hehe.