Explaining the Future Videos

I need to work on another video, I am planning to do a Nonny Whitney and tutu video adding my younger sister character and possibly my younger brother for they are included in this type of video. I am also going to do another Flanngy video and I am excited to do that one for it is going to be about something different besides art, and I hope you will enjoy them.

As you know (Or if you don't,) I have served a mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, and it was one of the hardest things I have ever done.

For one thing, I was serving for eighteen months and couldn't contact my family unless its email on Mondays and we get to call on Christmas and Mother day, and that was so hard for I have never been on my own before. I was just nineteen and never left home before so I was in a different state, with a stranger being my companion and I had to learn how to be a missionary, and it was way hard.

I learn how to speak to people either they hate me or love me, I do respect people wishes if they don't want to learn then fine it's ok, I baptized two little boys and they were part of a member family so I don't really count it but it is something. I am more proud of the inactive members that became active again because of me. It makes me so happy.

I did have problems getting along with some companions, I had 12 different companions and I want to say 9 out of 12 we didn't get along. We are friendly just being with each other for 24.7 is rough and can get on each other nerves.

Point is our schedule was strict, and our goals were strict, we had to focus on finding people to teach, teach people, baptize people and keep in touch with the people then start over again. Well, I only got to the teach people part for either I leave the area before I get to see them baptize or they don't want us teaching them anymore which can be heartbreaking. We had to get up at 6:30 every morning and be in bed by 10:30 every night. I was tired all the time, if I wasn't walking or standing I would fall asleep. It's embarrassing for while we would be teaching someone and I'm just bobbing my head, I tried everything to stay awake, sitting the edge of the chair, shaking my feet, going to the bathroom and do some jumping jakes, drinking water, everything and I always fall asleep

The reason I am talking about my mission is becaue the next video will be about my mission. Now I'm not going to talk about my while mission, just a little, it's going to be a short video, I'm hoping it's only going to be five minutes the least or maybe three minutes, either way it shouldn't be long the Flanngy video will be probably a little longer but not too much, can't wait when I can do that one.

If you serve a mission in your church or what not, I would love to hear them. Any service is serving our God, and if you got any funny ones I would love to hear them. I didn't really expercince any funny moment, just some moments when I'm so tired that I used deordeant instead of toothpaste, and I can't open doors sometimes.

I'm in a Pickle

So I am in a pickle, I feel very conflicted with my personal life right now. I am not going into details for its none of your business, but I was hoping that my youtube and blog would be something more by now...but it isn't, what do I need to do to make it something you would like to watch or read? On Instagram, I can only put like one link on my BIO and I struggle which one to do, to either do this blog or my youtube channel.

Right now it is my YouTube channel for I feel like more people will like that better, I thought I had done some clever videos (and I know that it will take a while to get subscribers and such, but man it is taking a long time). So I want to know, what kind of videos or comics are you looking for? If you don't know or don't care that's fine but for those that want to help me out that would be great, what kind of videos you are looking for on YouTube, and if you have a comic idea you would like me to do or inspired of me to do please comment or send me a email, my email should be on this blog but if not just email me at flanngy.kproductions@gmail.com. You can also check me out on Facebook, Instagram, and my Youtube channel, https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfOcx7d6JnRsy1G8ucBVAgg?view_as=subscriber.

This is how I feel, not necessary tired just feel like crap and have choices that I don't know what to do. I feel like whatever I do I need to get a job, even though being a mom is a job and trying to finish my book, I am so close finishing chapter three and I could possibly fit chapter four and five...but I'll focus on four.

I have also decided that maybe if this book only last two volumes that I will add a short story at the end of Volume two, cause I already halfway done with the story, and the story I will add at the end of Volume two or possibly three is the story about Susie, I have really grown about Susie and I had a crazy dream about me being an angel and trying to save this person life but the devil is too strong and was taking over, the way it turned out that I fell in love with the devil as the devil fell in love with me. Weird yes but it made me think a story for Susie based by that dream. 

I haven't written it out yet and I need too so I know if it is even worth doing. I might try to add Imogen story at the end also, I already have done this story and there is a video about her on my channel you can totally check out or read it here on my blog. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qE7so2Ji88A&t=27s 

https://flanngyslastdraw.blogspot.com/2018/09/imogen-tale.html

Music feeling thru Art

I have created a video with Flanngy doing art from music on how it makes you feel when you listen to a certain kind of music. I know that when I listen to music it changes my mood depending on what song. I didn't do a lot of music choices only a few and had my hubby who is Barbara to do dancing in the background so it can be interesting to watch, and he seems to dance to how the music is like also.

This was the feeling of calm from Enya Carribean Blue, she always makes me so at peace and feel calm. I enjoy doing this picture, I always feel at calm with nature so I had to put a person next to something and I chose a lake with mountains and decided that she is swinging next to the lake and it's sunsetting.  

This is the feeling of anger or mad from the song Centuries by Fall out Boys, it's not necessary a mad song just the way he sang and perform it I felt like screaming like I'm angry or something.

Because I'm Happy by Pharrell Williams has a very catchy beat so I do feel happy when anyone listens to it. And being happy means sunshine and flowers with much of colors. It is overwhelmed with how much lights and sparkles with different colors, but I wanted to show the happiness in it.

Consequences by Camila Cabello is a nice pretty song but by the way, it was played and sung it makes me feel sad. This picture looks very deary I didn't mean it to look so dark but it kind of shows a story with the song how a break up is hard to cope and such.

This is the video, I hope you enjoy it and subscribe like and such. 

Polar Bear

My back is killing me, it's a little better today but oh man, I sure hope it will be better soon.

So besides my problems, I have still been working on my book Sweet and Sour and the national holidays, there are so many National Holidays a day, I can't do them all but have been able to pick and do them and they turn out great!

These Holidays were all on one day, and I had to do them for I love cheesecake, I prefer cheesecake over pie. Oreos are my favorite cookie, they are soo good, I really like drawing dresses that's my favorite thing to draw, and I had a great idea for Frozen food. I don't necessarily like frozen food I prefer fresh but I do get corn dogs and hot pockets so if I am in a hurry or don't want to make a meal, boom there's something in the freezer to defrost.

What's your favorite national holiday so far? I really enjoy all of those national holidays but also...

Polar Bear day!! I love polar bears, I have been loving them ever since I got into a show called We Bare Bears, there's a polar bear name Ice Bear in the show and I love him so much. And ever since each time I see a polar bear I started to really like that, I think they are adorable and cuddly. I still have a heart for lions, I want a pet lion and I will when I die but right now my kids is all the pets I need right now. 

Ow My Back!

OH MY GOODNESS!

So I had knee surgery six weeks ago and was doing so well lately but today at the Physical Therapy I did something to my back!! NO!!

I don't know what I did but I was putting my brace back on for I was about to do some knee exercises with it and when I buckled the last part and started to straighten up PAIN stuck at the lower part of my back. This isn't the first time it happened, I have weird back pain here and there but it's been a while since the last one. But this is really bad pain, I couldn't move, I couldn't stay still, I just couldn't get comfortable it was in pain no matter what I did.

I can't have this, not now I just got my knee doing well and was cleaning the house and watching my kids, now I am stuck on the bed again. Grr. It is so frustrating, I saw a doctor after my physical therapy and she thinks I may have a slipped disk...well let's hope not, let's hope that I just strained it from bending it a lot to pick up toys and babies and such for I can't use my knees to bend down I have to use my back which I know it's wrong but it's hard to bend still with my knee condition.

It has ruined my chance to make a video, I was planning to make a video as Flanngy again with Barbara, if you haven't seen my last Flanngy video you should totally check it out, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8J8kizCrug4, I had a lot of fun making that video with my hubby, yes Barbara is my hubby, when I was about to do this video he wanted to a part of it and got really into to, it was so much fun doing this video with him and we planned to do another today but because I hurt my back we had to postpone till further notice.

You can ask me now if I'm doing ok and my answer is, no I am not doing ok, my knee hurts, my back hurts, and my hip hurts. I also have hip problems I'm pretty sure it's a type of restless leg or something, for I just lay or sit for a period of time it acts up and it hurts and annoying but if I up and do stuff, stretch and such it feels better. 

I love my hubby, he has been taking care of me and my children needs, when he picked me up from therapy and notice about my back pain he took me straight to the doctors and good thing he did cause they did help with the pain. Not totally but help so I can handle the pain, he took care of our kids while I am on the bed again. 

What do you do with your back pain if it's so severe? I heard I might have to do physical therapy for my back and I am not looking forward to that I am just hoping that it will be fine tomorrow and everything will work out.

My Fake Smile

So in this video, I explain about my smile.

I have a small mouth that it can be hard to smile. 

When I was a teenager I had trouble smiling, for my lips are small and so when I do smile it doesn't look like I am and it drives me crazy when someone asks me if I'm ok cause I don't look ok.

My best friend knows how much I get to ask and always tries to tell people not to say it cause there is no need, I am fine, I am not hurt, I am not sick, in pain nothing. I am just doing my own business with my natural look. Which apparently can look like death.

Do you ever get this problem? If you don't then great you got a perfect smile or perfect happy attitude. I have met someone that does smile all day...or at least acts happy, I am sure this person does struggle but every time I see that person there's nothing but sunshine and rainbows following.

When I got older my smile has gotten increase for people to seem to stop asking as much if I'm ok, I notice I do a crooked smile up to my right side of my lips, and there was one point where I was smiling so much that my cheeks would hurt and I had to stretch them, how to do that is make a yawn motion with your mouth. It can hurt.

I do have some rabbit teeth.

I have big teeth for my small mouth that when I was 10 I had to get braces for my dentist told me that I had to most crowded teeth in the world. I had so many teeth that it wasn't fitting in my mouth so they had to pull not one, not two, but four permitted teeth. Two on top and two on the bottom, so they can have room for the upcoming teeth and the rest wouldn't be so smooched. I had braces for two and a half years when it was only supposed to be one year.

My Story

So on March 14 is Write your story day and it has been on my mind about it ever since I found out and I know I have a story but I don’t know how to share it, and I don’t know how to draw it for I am doing National Days this year and this one has really had me.

>Being a mother and started a blog plus anime

I am a mother of two kids, I have a hubby who has health problems but still tries to provide for this family and we have been living on paycheck after paycheck and my hubby has been job after job and after another job lost I had it I wanted to do something even if it leads to nowhere I still wanted to do something. That’s when I started my blog. Flanngy Drew thick and thin, Flanngy is me, Krystal, I also go by Krissy chan for I have a passion with Manga and Anime, but I haven’t really watched any ‘new’ anime when I was a teenager I would be on Youtube watching Anime hours after hours and wouldn’t stop. My favorite was Princess Tutu, it does have nudity but what anime doesn’t? I am doing manga myself, or graphic illustrations if you want to call it, at least my mom does.

>Comic dream

I am working on one called Sweet and Sour, it was one of my first original stories that I started making when I was 13-14ish, I never finished it but it was a story that I and my little sister became and I wanted to polish on my tablet as a beginner trail. I haven’t finished the first book but want to by April or June, since I had knee surgery I am behind on schedule. I don’t have a publisher but I hope I will figure that out when I finish this book. My favorite Manga is From Far Away and Rurouni Kenshin.

>Youtube

I have also started a Youtube channel. Youtube has always been something that I’ve been so intrigued, I always tried making my own videos and I loved making videos, I made music videos with my sisters and I would edit it together and it was so much fun even though we had a computer that was slower than a turtle and would crash on me and lost memories and it would get me so mad. I even made some videos with my best friend and some other friends, I love filming and editing, I have posted videos on Youtube but it stopped by my parents for they were sketchy about it and banned us from Youtube and that crushed me. Yes, there are bad things on Youtube but only if you go to them.

For a long time, I wasn’t allowed on youtube, so I got used to it, but when I was older, married and had one child I was back into Youtube on my phone. Technology these days are amazing then back then. I can’t stop watching youtube videos I enjoy watching them and they help me fall asleep at night, especially watching people play horror games, I have a thing about horror games and videos, but just the intense ones, not the gory ones.  So I got back into youtube and made my own personal channel called K Productions, well after a while I had to change it to K Productions 3.0 for apparently there were tons of K Productions already so it hard for some I know try to find my videos. I made a facebook account called K Productions posting all of my comics on it, after a while I only got 21 followers on it and it took me months to get that much, well my sister told me to do an Instagram account, now I’m more familiar with Facebook so I wasn’t sure but when I did, BOOM I already got 60 followers in weeks and still have 21 on Facebook.

I enjoy making comics, especially on my tablet that my best friend got for me. I use to do my comics on paper and had to use a marker and pen to do it and also scan it in my computer and edit it so you can read the text and I hated it, it was a lot of work that shouldn’t be so when I got my nice tablet Stirling life was simpler. I also use it to create my videos, I use to have a nice program for animations but my laptop wouldn’t work anymore so after months I got a new laptop but doesn’t have a CD portal so I couldn’t download my animation program to my new laptop, which is stupid for I just got it down on how to use it. So now I just use my art program and do a picture by picture kind of animations. I don’t know what’s the best animations program that is free and easy to use I just don’t want to overload my new lappy Aqua Cloud for I can’t afford a new one.

>Music in my heart

I am fulfilling my dreams, I have always wanted to be something, yes I did want to be a mom but once I did I felt something was missing and got really depressed for I wasn’t doing anything to fulfill my dreams. My dreams became a comic artist and music composer...I have created songs over the years as well, I can't read music but can’t play the piano and guitar and made over 100 original songs. My music side came when I was 12 when I found out who Imogen Heap was, when I discovered her I fell in love with her and her talent, I started to learn how to do piano because of her, I didn’t learn notes I just learn how to move my hands on the keys, and it soon became a thing that I love doing. I started making tunes and lyrics, I borrowed a keyboard from a good friend when I was 14 for my dad couldn’t stand me playing the family piano anymore so I got a keyboard to play in my room and learn more about music.

I would spend time in my room making music, I’m not a good singer but did get some singing lesson from my mom, my mom has a beautiful voice, and she would teach me while we are driving somewhere for that's the only time she has for me to learn. A mom that raised ten kids has a lot on her plate. I learn guitar when I was 15 and got my own guitar Walcom for my birthday and my school taught guitar so that’s where I went for my high school years. I enjoy it, I learned a lot about the guitar and at home, I would play it a lot and made my own songs on it as well. But I’m not a music genius, I took a voice lesson choir class in high school and they were asking the students about minor and major and I had no idea what they are talking about when they ask me I was dumbfounded. Yes so if you ask me to jam with you I’m going to say no cause I’m not confident.

I do want to publish my songs and make albums and go out on tour performing them, that was one of my dreams do.

But right now I am drawing, I did do one of my songs with a speed art video called Hourglass, I wrote this song after my mission. My mission to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, I served for eighteen months in Kansas. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done but it was so rewarding at the same time and glad I endure the eighteen months.

>Mission

If you’re not familiar what this church is or what the missionaries do I suggest to go and ask one, they are usually the ones that have two companions of boys and girls wearing shirt and tie or dress and skirts with a black badge on their chest saying Elder something or Sister something, I was Sister Barrett, people got my name wrong a few times, it was Sister Barrette Bartlet and Bennett...It’s ok I forgave them, I learn a lot in my mission, my eyes open for I had no idea how many different religions there was till I was in Kansas on the bible belt. I can see why Joseph Smith was confused about which one to go to, again if you don’t know and would like to know I would suggest to find a missionary or go to Mormon.org or Lds.org, we are a church of Jesus Christ not to Mormon, people know us better if we say Mormon but we don’t preach about Mormon we preach about Christ, he is our saviour and how our purpose was to bring others to come unto Christ. I’m not trying to make you believe what I believe in this no I’m just telling about my religious beliefs for this church has made me who I am also, and that is a child of God, and without God, I don’t know how I would survive. He has saved me in so many ways that I know he is there and Christ lives, he suffered all of our sins and died and lived again so we can live again, death is not something that ends there's more and that comforts me, wouldn’t it for you? I know that this church is true, I have studied it myself and ask God if it is and got an answer that I cannot forget, it’s a feeling that felt warm and peaceful, again I’m not trying to convert but I know that people have some strong feelings about us. They even say how we don’t believe in christ...that really gets me for our church name (The church of Jesus Christ) has Jesus Christ in it. We read the bible of King James version and have the book of Mormon, it doesn’t take anything away from what the bible says it just adds and helps the bible, at least it has helped me understand the Bible, these books bring truth about Jesus Christ and help each other out, I enjoy reading the New testament and the book of mormon, we have nothing against the bible we learn from it just as much as the book of mormon, and if you want to know if it true you need to read it yourself and ask God, that’s what I did, I have studied it for myself and asked God. I have compared it to another religion that I’m not going to name if it’s true and when I ask I had the most unspeakable dark feeling, I felt so sick and gross I had to leave. Now I’m not saying other religions are bad no every church I have discover do great things and we like to serve or help as much as we can without contentions, I’m just telling you what I believe.

So yeah serving a mission was really hard but one of the best reward I could ever ask. I didn't really convert anyone but have taught a lot of good people, made lots of friends, and got people that weren’t active (as in won’t come to church anymore) I got them to come again. And that’s just as good as baptizing them.

>My Honesty and C.A.P.D plus my dragon

My story is long and there's so much more about my story than this but I feel like this is a good portion about me. If you would like to write your story on March 14 You can in the comments or on a pen and paper or whatever, I don’t know if you learn anything from my story and you will probably either love it or hate it,  I know there are haters out there but I know there's good in you and you are struggling with life just like me, I have dealt with really bad postpartum depression it feels like a dragon that wants to breathe fire out of me, but it also feels like I am in a deep hole and cry myself till I drown, depression is a real thing that cannot be controlled, I understand that now before I didn’t I was so naive about it when I hear people having depression I didn’t understand why they are depressed and can’t be happy but now I know and I am so sorry for those that struggle with it, I also struggle with financial. I know I’m not you, but I know You are You and what makes you are beautiful don’t ever forget who you are, if you decide to dislike me for reason I don’t know then ok, I can’t stop you, but I would rather if you like me for I am a nice person, I am a good listener if it just you talking and nobody else interrupting, for if you don’t know I also have C.A.P.D, (Central Auditory Process Disorder) it’s a type of a hearing disorder where I can hear fine but information doesn’t get to my brain so I was in the special classes all growing up, and if I was in a normal class I had a someone there always helping me understand. It is a struggle still today, I get things to mix up and get impatient when I don’t understand, special over the phone.

>Ballet, Knee, Bugs, tongue, my love for family

You can learn more about me on my blog, for I tell all of these things and more, I have a passion for dancing, ballet, I really thought I was going to a professional ballet dancer for I worked hard to get on pointe shoes and wanted to get strong on them and be so good. But I have a knee problem and I got it to fix but I still don’t know if I can dance so, for now, I am a mom drawing my book Sweet and Sour hoping to do other stories, (Flower in the Dust, Moon Princess, Gaining Altitude, etc I have a million more). I also do my comics of The Intriguing Life of Nonny Whitney & Tutu, and my videos on youtube, I feel like it’s my purpose and it makes me so happy and relieved to do them. I do have a fear of beetles grasshoppers and dislike cockroaches (On my mission I lived in a lot of areas where there was nothing but cockroaches and it made me sick). Not spiders, I am a spider killer in my family. I use to not like pizza but ever since I got pregnant I can’t stop eating them. I have a tongue allergic reaction to centrist and avocados which is sad it started when I first got pregnant, not sure why but ever since then I can’t really eat oranges and such and I love pineapple and avocados. My biggest fear is losing my kids, I love my kids so much that if they got kidnapped, got lost, or died I don’t know what I’ll do with myself, I love my family and I don’t want anything bad to happen to us. I thank God every day that nothing has so far.

Bartolomew

So I recently did a YouTube video about how to draw a Triangle, and I wanted to do something out of the ordinary, or at least something different than I've been doing now, and I got the thinking about Flanngy, Flanngy is a nickname for me and I use it so much cause it's a strange unusual name that I do adore, and then it hit me, what if I become Flanngy? And then I love that idea and started to figure out who she is and how her look should be and how she speaks and such, when I was about to record myself my hubby was asking if he could be Flanngy and I told him no for I am Flanngy and then he wanted to be part of it. He got all dolled up, and I mean he got all dolled up and got really into it. 

If you would like to watch it click here.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8J8kizCrug4

That was really fun, I enjoy doing videos but I really like videos with someone, we are planning to do more videos in the future and I hope you will like them.

One of my characters name Bartolomew is a quiet stealthy character, I haven't talk much about him cause he isn't really much to talk about he is just a extra that I needed. He is a little humorous little more than expected and it got me into him a little bit more. I didn't really think I would use him much but the more I drew the more I use him. He is still quiet and works on his own but when you do see him he can make you chuckle. 

I don't know his background story, only that he wasn't the greatest when he was alive on earth and so when he died he was bad and got in trouble but Drake got him to change and now he is working to be a savior...or is he? He really looks up to Drake.

His hair was more like a dark blue and purple color but I didn't like that, so I am going with more a dark red brown look.

Nothing like Susie bright hair. I think my coloring is improving.

New Picture for my Channel

I had the most crazy bizarre adventure getting back home from Saint George, my husband pass out behind the wheel I had to drive at least to safety with my left leg for my right leg is not available so that was tricky we had to wait for my hubby's siblings for they had to come down and pick us up, but we did get home safe, and it really looks like we are moving down there for sure and I have some doubts and negative about it and it is very stressful for if we do that we need to find a house and pack and move and then unpack and it's never fun moving.

When I got home I got hit by depression real bad, I haven't take my meds for a few days for I forgot to bring it while we were gone, and I felt pretty good at first thought that maybe just maybe I'm OK and don't need that medication, but I was wrong it came back and I was crying up a storm and also my dragon wanted to breath fire. That sounds like it could be a good song, ♭ I cry up a storm and my dragon roars!! Hey that rhymes I should totally make a song, -don't steal it-.

Anyway yeah I got hit and got me really down and didn't want to do anything, depression is such a killer, I really do hope it goes away soon for I hate how I feel like this, I was doing so good for so long besides my knee this depression has been the worst thing that has been upon me, there's no controlling it.

Anyways today I am doing a little better and manage to put this together for my YouTube Channel,

Thumbnail Maker is a app I found on my phone and decided to try to use it and I like it. It just has me this time not all three of us. Who 'us' you might be wondering? The name K Productions came from the idea of us sisters that have names start with a K, my older sister and my younger sister. We created The Intriguing Life of Nonny Whitney and Tutu and created our stories together, Sweet and Sour has been helped by my younger sister and she has been supportive with my blog and channel. My older sister is usually the brains of all of our comics and stories, but ever since she got married and have kids it's kind of hard to get her brains working again but she is still part of the K Productions team. 

The 3.0 came from my little brother, he suggest to add that for there are more than one K Productions on YouTube and the 3 means three of us, my older sister me and my younger sister, I haven't said their names and that's because I don't know if they want me too so I'll just say the first few letters,

my older sister name is Ka---and my younger sister name is Ky---. Got it?

Ugh, I just had a burger that had thick slices of onions and now all I can taste is onions, does anyone have a breathe mint? 

My opinion on Moving

So if you or your husband decides to move how do you know if its right? My hubby got a job opportunity down at Saint George and decides to accept it, now we live more north in Alpine Utah, and Saint George is a nice place, got the opportunity to visit it with my hubby and two kids and I do enjoy the nice weather and the red rock look. But to live here is it right?

I am still recovery from knee surgery so I don't know if I can do any kind of moving stuff right at the moment and the job doesn't open till August, so we have time and hopefully by then my knee will be better, but it is a big decision and a big change for I will be far away from my family and last time I was far away was on my mission in Kansas for eighteen months and that was really hard. But in this case it will be better I get to call my mom anytime I want and we can still visit when we can.

I haven't had a bad feeling about moving here, I am already looking at places to potentially live and it is exciting to move somewhere and start another life, but the moving part will be hard I never like the packing and unpacking that's really tough.

I have done a few of February National Holidays.

Feb 27 was Polar Bear day and I have started to really like polar bears so I had to do this one. They are becoming my favorite animal, they are awesome bears, specially Ice Bear from We Bare Bears.

Uh I didn't sleep in public on this day...Feb 28 I was in bed sleeping for I can't do much still with my knee.

After Valentines we need too remember for those that are single and are probably happy but I know a few that are very sad about it, but I know they will find someone someday.

It didn't really rain or snow to use a umbrella but I enjoy doing  this pict

The weather where I live did't work out to fly a kite.

I actually did do this one, it was Feb 3 I think that this day was and I enjoyed it.

Love love XOXOXO

I still don't know what this means do you?

Feb 5th was Chinese New year, I love the Chinese culture!

And of course Nutella is my favorite.

Motherhood

I made a video about how I started to be a mother, it is tough and I can get impatient with my kids but it is one of the best things I love doing. Being a mom is wonderful, I enjoy playing with my kids, bounding with them, and etc. They can be really hard at some times and all mothers need that break from kids or else we would go insane and possibly stop mothering, I haven't exactly want to stop mothering my children but I know I have gotten to the point where I can't do it anymore. Postpartum depression was way worst on my second child and it really was hard to cope with.

But it doesn't mean I never hate my kids, I love and adore my children and can't imagine a life without them. Being a mom can be the greatest thing, it just also one of the hardest thing, specially the no sleep that is the killer. You cannot function without sleep, sleep is the one thing you need to stay insane, and you only get three hours of sleep for three days you cannot be normal. 

My hubby with my first child was a little silly not understanding what I have to go through with no sleep, he soon learned and repented and let me sleep while he watches our child and it helped a lot. When it came to my second kid he was on top of it, he wanted to make sure I did OK, got the sleep I need, and wasn't selfish when he came home from work, he knows that I work and clean all day as well and so he helps me stay insane by taking the kids for me for a little bit or we go out on a date once a week. Dates are so crucial for parents, you need that alone time with each other, we even once in a while put the kids down for bed and we stay up watch a movie together while scratching each other backs, it is so nice to have that time with each other. 

I always look forward to our anniversary for we get to go somewhere for one night and that is the nicest. 

I love my two kids, my two little girls, I do hope to have one or two more and wouldn't mind if it was a girl and a boy or just a boy. I am really happy with my two girls if that's all I can have, for I do have pregnancy issues, my heart races for no reason and it can make me feel like I just ran a marathon, and I always ending up in the hospital for reasons and had both my kids three weeks early.